[English]
'This is all just for work and nothing else.' I keep telling myself that right before I kiss him.
"Cut!" ..... And I'm back to my senses. What just happened? My heartbeat racing because of him isn't anywhere in the script.
When you don't...
"Godt, you're acting is getting worse and worse!" shouts one of the staffs.
Those words punctured my ears. And my pride, too. I can't blame him though. Call me unprofessional, but these past few days, I've been feeling like hell, and my work is suffering.
It all started two weeks ago. The ice cream incident.
Let me tell you why.
First, when I got home that night, I had an argument with Shrln. I couldn't help it. She's the one who started avoiding me, yet she's making me feel like it's all my fault. She's accusing me of taking her for granted. That I don't have time for her anymore. That I'm putting my job before her.
As far as I remember, I am always the one who sends her messages and ask her to go out whenever I am free. She can really turn things around. Just because of that, we became cold to each other. Can you imagine how broken I'm feeling right now?
Second, no matter how hard I try to concentrate at work, I just can't because I am bothered by P'Tae and Bas and whatever it is that's going on between them. I can sense a strange kind of closeness between them. I should be the one in P'Tae's place. I should be the one closer with Bas. Why not? I'm his onscreen partner. P'Tae should be spending more of his time with Tee.
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That's why sometimes, even if I want to ask Bas to rehearse some lines, the situation doesn't permit me. You already know why. P'Tae is always around him. The only chance I get to be with Bas is when P'Tae isn't present or is busy in a shoot. Nonetheless, P'Tae only has a limited number of scenes, so he has more free time to be with Bas.
I don't want to take too much of Bas' time during his break. That's why I just use my free time to take a nap. Can be helpful to refresh myself.
"I'm really really sorry. I'll do better next time." I express my apology while giving them a wai. I don't remember how many times we've tried to shoot this particular scene, and I still can't get it.
"Do you still feel uncomfortable acting with your partner?" he asks while looking at Bas and me.
"No, not at all." I firmly answer, but to be honest, I do feel uneasy around Bas. Wait! I am not sure whether it is with Bas or with P'Tae. I know that sometimes he looks at me with threatening eyes that I feel anxious.
He's a nice guy, and I am aware of that. It's a fact. I just can't escape from his sharp stares whenever Bas and I are in front of the camera.
Or..... It could also be just my imagination.
"Are you sure? You don't look believable being Phana who's in love with Wayo. Feels empty. It's like watching a stump act."
