Make It Real ( 2 Moons Cast Fanfic ) (BXB)

Chapter 8

English translator: stoked_souL

Godt’s POV

It’s almost midnight, and I still can’t get myself to sleep. I can’t stop smiling. Somebody dial 1669 for my lips are about to rip.

For the first time in two weeks, I can put on a smile. At last, I’ve found an escape from the stress caused by heartache.

God knows how much I want to reconcile with Shrln, but I’m not the one at fault. She’s the one who’s been avoiding me just because of that marriage proposal that came out of my mouth too soon. I guess. Can I at least save some pride for myself? Sometimes, I wonder just how hard is it to love me? I mean, really?

Okay, you can all call me a player, but I have to admit, with Bas around, I find solace. These past few days, his smiles really help me get rid of whatever misery I feel inside. I can’t explain why.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a man crush. Sexuality isn’t really a big deal for me right now. I am only certain about one thing, this feeling makes me happy.

It’s just a simple admiration. In my present state, I could really use an inspiration. It saddens me more when I realize that my girlfriend, my top source of inspiration, is making me feel like I’m not important. Note that she’s the reason why I chose this current path in the first place. Now, she’s also the main reason why I’m having trouble at work.

I’ve made up my mind. I’ll do this for me and for Bas. He has good potential in acting. I will feel really bad if I’ll be the one to drag him down. He doesn’t deserve that considering that we’re both new to this. I have to make it up to him for always being there for me.

There’s still a million things bothering me right now, but I can surely say I feel much better. And on top of that, I am overjoyed! You know why? I’m Bas’ first kiss! And he’s my first kiss too. I mean, with a guy.

Whenever that comes to mind, it makes me feel like a teenage girl getting noticed by her crush. Ha ha ha!

I don’t know how long I’ve been stalking Bas’ IG while on my bed. He only has a few followers for now. Is he going to notice my overly enthusiastic likes on his post?

I just notice now that he uploaded our photo during the auditions.

Taps on the screen. *like*
*comment* too

Feeling nervous before posting my comment, why am I feeling like a high-schooler afraid of being caught by my crush? Indeed, I’m going crazy.

I’ve gone too far. I have already browsed almost all his photos since 2016. He’s really adorable, this Nong Bas.

Wait! I’ve just thought of something.
*Tap…  Tap… Tap*

There. I’ve changed my IG profile photo. Just like his. Black and white. Can anyone notice? WTF