Make It Real ( 2 Moons Cast Fanfic ) (BXB)

Chapter 17

Godt’s POV

It’s been two days since Bas’ birthday. They weren’t present in yesterday’s shoot because as I heard, Bas was sick and P’Tae didn’t have any scene to be shot.

That’s a good thing for me though because I wouldn’t know where to find the guts to face Bas. I regret everything I did that night, and I admit it was all because of despair. I really didn’t mean to, Bas. I only hope that I didn’t cause too much pain in your heart that would lead to fear because I swear I won’t be able to forgive myself.

I don’t know what to do here. How should I say sorry to him? Will he even talk to me? I’m afraid that if I even get near him, he’ll just punch my face, oh but I’ll take it. I know I deserve it because I’ve been a jerk to him. Sigh.

I decided to come to set early today, so I can avoid him if he comes. Oh come on, Godt? Really? I can’t fool myself. Me avoiding Bas? That’ll be the biggest joke anyone can hear. Also, it’s totally impossible because he’s my partner in this series. That fact can still make me smile.

I know that Godt might have already lost the battle for Bas’ heart, but I can still get to make use of my role as Phana to win Wayo. Silly, I know. And at this point, I should feel down and broken, but when I think of Bas and his smiles, I can’t help but smile too. There’s no way to resist that. I could only wish for P’Tae to give me the green light to have a crush on his boyfriend. Ha ha!

Now, I know I’m hopeless, but I would like to stay in love with Bas. The pain of loving him means nothing to me, and his happiness is more important than mine, so I’ll just stay back and leave him be. I don’t agree with what he said that night that I was only thrilled and curious about him, because I know myself very well, and I can say for sure. I am crazy about him.

“P’Godt!”
I know that low baritone voice. It’s from the beautiful man I adore. I turn to look as he approaches me. He’s just arrived. Oh no, this is it! Is he going to beat me? I keep still and silent and just wait for anything he wants to do to me.

“P’Godt, I’ve bought you coffee. I remember what you like, so I got you this.” He hands me a tall cup.

Wait what? What’s happening? It took me a while before going back to my senses and eventually accepting the drink from his hand. I also noticed a small and worn-out bandage wrapped around his finger.

”Uhm…. Thanks?” I didn’t know what to say.

“I’ll just bring my stuff to the dressing room, P’.”
He turns around and leaves me speechless. I really don’t understand what just happened, so right after I finished my coffee, I got up to see him and talk to him while I still have the chance. I headed to the dressing room.

When I enter, he smiles at me then gets back to whatever he’s looking for in his bag. Shouldn’t he be running for the door already and screaming and throwing things at me? He’s acting really weird right now.

“Bas….”

“Yes, P’!”

“Aren’t you mad at me? Your behavior is really scaring me right now.”

He was quiet and confused at first then let out a laugh when he realized what I was talking about.

“Oh! Ha ha ha!”

“I’m serious here.” He stops laughing.
“P’, I’m not mad. Maybe just a little upset but not anymore. You were drunk, and I was the reason…”

“… I felt really guilty for breaking my promise, and felt worse when I saw that you’ve prepared so much for my birthday. I liked your gift very much by the way.”