Make It Real ( 2 Moons Cast Fanfic ) (BXB)

Chapter 10

English Translator: stoked_souL

Godt’s POV

I have never done anything like this towards someone before. I can’t find the logic in the things I’ve been doing lately.

I’m going to extremes for him, yet I’m nonchalant about it. Should I be glad or the opposite?

I find it pleasing to know that there’s a possibility for Bas to like a guy. I’m not that dense. I am aware of what’s happening.

And I feel a little disappointed knowing that he already likes someone else. I don’t have any plans of forcing myself to him. I know it isn’t proper.

The best thing to do right now is to use the feeling, this infatuation, as an inspiration. I should find contentment in watching him from afar. I’ll stay two steps behind.

This attraction that I have towards him isn’t going anywhere. It’s just hopeless. Keep in mind that I am still committed to someone although my feelings for her just keeps getting weaker and weaker because
of her taking me for granted.

Maybe someday, I’ll find real love.

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What a long day! It’s been really tiring not to mention that I’m feverish right now because of today’s shoot. I really tried my best to deliver my lines correctly, but since I’ve been out of my mind lately, I screwed up big time, and now we’re both sick.

I made sure to drop by the pharmacy to get myself some drugs. I need to recover from this illness because we’ve got work tomorrow, a promotional event.

*Buzz buzz*

-1 message from MyLoves❤-

A cold day in hell! There must be something wrong. Is it really her sending me a message?

‘Can we meet tomorrow? I miss you?’

Is this for real? Yeah it makes me smile, but I can’t find any excitement in me.

What should I say? I’ve got a busy day tomorrow.

‘We have an event tomorrow.’

I feel a little anxious sending that message. I can surely say this is going to lead to another argument.

‘It’s alright. I can wait.’

Really, this should make me feel good, but there’s nothing but emptiness inside me.

‘Uhm, okay. We’ll be at Siam Square at 3 PM. Lost and Found: The Mie Project.’

‘Okay, see you tomorrow, MyLove.’

‘See you then.’ – Godt

‘I love you.’ – Shrln

I didn’t reply anymore. Honestly, I don’t know how to respond to that. I just close my eyes to get some sleep.

-Morning-

I feel better now, no more fever. I wonder about Bas. Has he recovered?

I don’t know how long I’ve been staring at my phone thinking whether to ask how he’s feeling or not. It annoys me to think that for sure, P’Tae has already checked on him.

Deep breath.

Okay, I’ll text him. I’ll just ask if he can make it to the event.

‘Good morning. How are you feeling now, Nong?’ I press on the send button with my eyes half-closed. Will he text me back?