Make It Real ( 2 Moons Cast Fanfic ) (BXB)

Chapter 16

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Bas’ POV

“I don’t need that, P’Godt.”
“You’ve got to stop. It’s hopeless.”

He appears to have lost the last straw of hope and become defenseless as he holds the table while slowly sitting himself down on one of the chairs beside him. I feel so sorry for him for what I’ve done.

Him kissing me didn’t make me angry. I know he wasn’t himself that time. It’s my fault. I gave him my word and broke my own promise. He might’ve found comfort in alcohol.

I didn’t plan on any of this. I didn’t want to be mean to him either, but I had to do this because this is the only way to tell him to stop and not to expect anything anymore. He has been very nice to me, and I believe I am actually helping him.

I took a deep breath and looked at him. Sigh. I can’t leave him alone like this. I walk towards him to convince him once more to get home.

“P’, I’ll take you home.”
No response from him except a stare with sorrowful eyes. Please don’t look at me like that, P’. I never meant to hurt you, but I have to make you understand that I already have someone in my heart, and I have no intention of betraying the trust that he gave me. I’m sorry, but hurting you now is better than sugarcoating the situation. I promise it’ll save you from greater pain in the future.

“P’, let’s go. I won’t leave until I take you home. I can’t let you be like this.” I offered him my hand to help him get up, and he took it, but no words came out of his mouth. I don’t know how much he had to drink tonight, but even though he can walk straight, I still stay beside him until he gets in the cab.

“Just give me a minute, I’ll be right back.” I told him as I ran back to the restaurant to get something.
Then, we head to his house.

P’Godt told the driver where to take us, and I also told him to find the nearest pharmacy on our way for me to get some medicine for P’Godt and bandages for my finger.

“Here, P’, take this.” I give him the pill and a bottle of water while in the taxi. He’s still silent, so I just smile at him while in my head, I tell him ‘it’s all going to be okay’.

I offer to help him get into his room although I can see that he still has enough strength to take care of himself. I want him to feel that I can still be there for him even as a friend only.

I start to walk towards the door after I let him sit on the couch when he says,
“Can you stay a little longer, Bas?”

“……”   I don’t know what to do. P’Tae is waiting for me, but my mind is being eaten by guilt because of P’Godt. I have to make a decision. I don’t think there’s anything wrong if I stay for a bit longer.

“Okay, P’. I’ll just pay for the cab ride and get my stuff, too.”

When I come back, I tell him to take a shower, so he’ll feel better. I want to take care of him even just for now then I’ll leave soon. Before he enters the shower, I tell him that I’ll be making some soup for him in the kitchen, and he didn’t refuse. After he takes a shower, I offer him the soup that I made and he accepts it without saying a word.

“I’ll go after you finish that.”
He looks at me then says, “Don’t go yet.”

Sigh. What can I do? “Okay, okay. I guess I can still stay a little bit longer.”
I just watched him finish his meal, and when he did, I suggested he go to bed to get some rest, but he refused, so now here we are in his living room just staring at each other.