Make It Real ( 2 Moons Cast Fanfic ) (BXB)

Chapter 14

English Translation: stoked_souL

Godt's POV

The karmic cycle of life has hit me too hard. Indeed I deserve this kind of pain for not being contented with what I have. There’s not a valid reason for what I’ve done. Falling for someone else while still committed to another is never acceptable.

Now, I’m paying the price.
This pain, however, is one that I can endure. I don’t regret falling for Bas. I admit that even though there’s not a bit of chance for us to be together, how I feel for him is totally different from all my past relationships.

Never have I imagined myself feeling this way towards anyone. The funny thing is that it had to take a guy for me to explore my deepest hidden emotion and offer it to him eventually. This could be the best kind of feeling for me ever.

I never saw myself in this kind of situation. I didn’t think that I had in me the penchant to love a beautiful man.

I can offer him this selfless love, and it will never change. I’ll always be here for him though it can’t be clear enough that he will never be mine.

“Deep thoughts?”
That’s Meme. She may have noticed I’ve been zoning out since I got here. She finds me sitting alone away from everyone.

I smile at her before saying, “You think so?”

“Are you thinking about Bas?” I didn’t expect that from her.

“Huh?”

“I saw you kissing him yesterday.”
I was caught red-handed. There’s no excuse anymore.

“No worries. I didn’t tell anyone, and I don’t have any plan to tell on you guys. You might not know this, but I’m a real-life fujoshi, and I’m actually rooting for the two of you.” says Meme as she sits next to me.

“Thanks. We all know it’s a big no-no, and I don’t want to drag Bas into this. This is all on me since I am the one who likes him.” I can’t hide the despair in my voice now.

“So what’s the problem? Did he reject you?”

“Not directly, but it’s almost like that because he already likes someone else.”

“Is it P’Tae? I’m a keen observer, and my guts are telling me there’s something when they look at each other.”

I can only nod at her.

“I see. This must be hard for you. What do you plan on doing?”

“Plan? Nothing. I don’t want to force myself to him nor cause any trouble between the two of them.”

Her eyes are sympathetic.

“Oh I heard it’s his birthday this Sunday. Are you getting him anything?” she was quick to change the topic.

Stupid of me not knowing about his birthday. Now I don’t know what to give him.

“Uhm… I’ll think about it.”
Good enough that it makes me forget my problem and just be excited about choosing a gift.

When I think about having this chance to make him happy, I get even more thrilled.

“N’Meme, N’Godt, get ready. Your turn is up.” There goes our cue.

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After today’s shoot before heading home, I’m thinking of asking Bas if he has any plans for his birthday, but the great wall known as P’Tae never leaves his side. I can’t get a chance to even come close to him.