[English]
'This is all just for work and nothing else.' I keep telling myself that right before I kiss him.
"Cut!" ..... And I'm back to my senses. What just happened? My heartbeat racing because of him isn't anywhere in the script.
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I still can’t figure out how all of this is happening and why? Earlier, P’Tae kissed me on the cheek, and now P’Godt has just done the same. Is this some kind of a joke because I am nearly losing my sanity?
P’Godt asked me to go back to the set and have lunch, but I refused and told him he could go ahead.
I want to stay here a little longer and think things through. Sitting here in the corner, I wonder if I still have the guts to face them both later.
I feel like I did something wrong to the two of them.
P’Godt asked me if P’Tae and I are together, and I said no because it’s the truth. I know because P’Tae keeps telling me that he sees me as his little brother and nothing more. Should I have said yes?
Although I am aware of the fact that what we’ve been doing lately can be considered more than just brotherly, I still prefer to not put any label to it. Not until he’s the one to confirm it. You cannot just expect and believe what you want to when you want to. I know it sounds crazy.
Now, about P’Godt. All this time I thought that he’s straight and one of the reasons is that he has a girlfriend, but what has happened to him? As far as I can remember, I didn’t do anything to make him like me.
But I have to admit that I was impressed with his being straightforward. He had the guts to tell me directly that he likes me. I am afraid though that I can’t reciprocate his feelings towards me.
He said I don’t need to like him back, and he doesn’t expect anything either, but the chances of me hurting him is inevitable because you all know that P’Tae is the one I like.
What might have I done in my past life for me to deserve two gorgeous looking men falling for me?
I didn’t notice that someone is already in front of me as I am drowning in all these thoughts.
It’s P’Kimmon. Oh please don’t tell me he’s planning on kissing me too! I won’t be able to handle that anymore. I give up.
“Bas! Everyone’s looking for you; why are you here? Have you eaten yet? It’s your turn soon.”
“Sorry P’. I was just talking on the phone earlier that’s why I’m here.” I just lied to him.
“Let’s go nong. Have lunch, so they can start preparing you for your scene.” He pulls my arm which makes me get up from sitting, and he wraps his arm around my shoulder while we walk back to the set.
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When we get to the set, I notice P’Tae looking at me with furrowed brows when he saw what P’Kim is doing. And there goes P’Godt with his mouth partly opened while also staring at us. I quickly remove P’Kim’s arm around my shoulder and head to where the food is. WTF! Why do I feel like a promiscuous man right now? I haven’t done anything wrong.
