Hayley Leblancs Diary->a bratayley fanfiction

Am i drowning||03

yo it's evewritesxx  or Eve and here's my chapter

i fully came up with this poem myself please don't steal

Dear Diary,

have you ever felt like your drowning?
and no not that
water deep, throat clenching, lifeless
type of drowning
im talking about the type of drowning where it last more then 2 minutes
where it last more then a few seconds
where you don't have miles and miles
or depths and depths of water surrounding you and blocking all vision
you just have thoughts
thoughts and thoughts and more thoughts
the type of drowning where you stick earbuds in your ears to keep the voices out
where you sleep and sleep to keep the noises out
and when all hope is lost you take a blade to your wrist to let your emotions out, because you have listened to too much music tell your ears went rotten
and you have sleep and sleep till your eyes got tired
and you have tried and tried yet lost and lost
you are alone
alone with your thoughts
yet you choose to be alone
alone, yes alone
you know you screw up far to much to enjoy life all along
and when you are in the depths of shallow water and all have to do is stand
but you keep falling harder
deeper into the water
because along with all the blood you lost when you dragged a blade
slicing your skin
you lost your will to fight
your will to win.
so tell I should tell truth not the same crap I tell
to the counselor whose sitting in that chair
Am Im drowning?
no im fine
far gone
insecure
never happy
empty

yeah just fine.

thanks for loving me when no one else would
i hope you can understand
that controlling thoughts is harder then it seems
especially when you don't have a controller to control all things

i hope you know this is for you

fly high bubba
im coming too you.

i finish the poem dotting it with a tear.

im coming bubba, im coming