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lmao i just had the weirdest dream

it was that I was like sitting nest to this guy in a bean bag at a drive in movie theater and like we ended up cuddling? but every time i like moved it scared him?? idk it was really weird bc the guy I was with is only my friend and id never see myself in a relationship with him or even like him in that way at that matter so like idk it was so weird

this is like the second time I've dreamed about a guy that i have no interest in at all and its so weird like ejahausn im dating somebody??? who I love???  and it might even just be rhe aspect of cuddling bc I love cuddling lmao but idk why it wasnt the person I was dating at the time and instead a random guy

which also reminds me my friend is a straigjt up hoe like shes dating one guy and like flirting with 2 other ones and even right in front of her boyfriend jesus christ I love her but shes a h o e like literally shes always had guys s t a c k e d u p

but it's terrible bc like my old crush is starting to show interest in me and fhe ex of multiple friends likes me and then my friends boyfriend and one of her crushes likes me like w h a t th e. f cuk?? stop???I am unavailable?????????????????? I am not open fot business???? adios???

also lmao I speak Spanish and this guy alwaya tries speaking to me in Spanish and I never answer bc I dont want to end uo always speaking Spanish with him bc im too laZY jesus no thanks so I just don't answer abd then he continues to speak to other people about me as if I can't understand- literally what a brat i hate him

the thing is I look white even tho im white, hispanic and korean (the last 2 on my dads side) but you can barely tell im anything but white so everyone at my school that speaks spanish always just assumes I don't so they straight up talk abt me n shit in Spanish like lol u good i can understand you

but I never tell anyone bc if people know then like I wont get it on that spicy drama spoken in another language

skrrt okay I talk too much lmaooooo

YOONGI

JIMIN

hey

um

so I heard from namjoon

just ignore what he said

i don't want to yoongi

I really really want you back

and I still really really like you

and from what I've heard you feel
the same

and ive learned what ive done wrong
and I can promise you it won't ever
happen again

im not an idiot anymore

I was an idiot for not realizing you
were so fucking perfect

jimin

please

just give me one more chance?

i don't know

i promise you i won't hurt you

i really mean it

I've never been so sure about something

i cant just start over with you and
have a relationship immediately

then we'll start slow

whatever you want

whatever helps you

im still not sure

it doesn't seem right

what doesn't?

dating you again

i cant just pretend you never cheated
on me

or that you never avoided caring for
me when my mother died and left me
alone

which by the way im still suffering alone

and ive kust been fucking needing
somebody still for the longest time

because park jimin decided i wasnt enough
and cheated on me

yoongi

ive already told you

im stupid

you are good enough

i was just too much of an idiot to see

but if you need someone

I can prove to you that I mean it when
I say I won't hurt you

if you want

I can come over

if you need someone

yk

because ik you

n shit

i feel better when someone's physically
there yea yea

yea

i dated you for a while

I know that shit

so do you want me to come over?

thatd help actually

okay

ill be there

thanks.

anything for you

really

right

still tryna decide how long its gonna take for yoongi to fully give him.another chance