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My fingertips stroked the tattered cover of my scriptures, closing the book tenderly as I took a deep and rejuvenating sigh.

If I had learned anything, I have realized the importance of daily prayer to boost my faith and wellbeing.

I had never truly realized the impact that scripture had on me until I ran away. The weekly worships and prayers and conversations that lead me closer to my creator. I missed all of that. Once a week, I was conditioned to further study my beliefs and grow in my faith with a loving and welcoming community.

And I allowed myself to ruin that.

I could feel the intrusive thoughts knocking at the gates of my mind, but I ignored them for a moment longer. Instead of allowing the anxiety to seep into my mind and grasp my heart, I thought logically. I made a mistake when I decided to leave, but that is years in the past.

The real question is, what can I do now to mend the mistakes of my past?