♡TURTLES♡ - Randomization Book #2

For Ivy (and me I guess)

Umm...
I'm not sure how to start this...

Well, I'll start by saying, Hi.

Hi Ivy,
I'm Muffin.

You probably don't know me,
Most people dont.
Only my "Family and friends" know who I am.

But I've heard what your going through,
I've listened to your story from the shadows.
I've watched as you've tried and tried to push through, and...you try even more.

And I know

I know it's hard

You may look a my account and think many things like

"That girl is a complete nutjob."

Yes, you are right

"She has no writing talent."

Also correct
Do i care
not a bit

"She doesn't deserve the live and friends she has, she only is a disapointment."

Though that last one may not be true to some, it feels true to me.

Night after night I think to myself,

"Why am I here,"

"where do I belong,"

"What do I deserve,"

And you know what

I'm not sure

I may seem like a happy, bubbly, excited person

But I'm not

I struggle... every day

There are days I think my parents hate me

I talk to much

I feel my friends don't want to be around me.

I feel as though I'm not good enough

I feel as though I'll never be good enough

I fall

I cry

I scream

I hurt.

I feel

Useless

So I know you Ivy.

But can I say one thing

I stand

I chase

I dream

I try

And I do

I get back up when I fall

I get better

I learn from my experiences

I tell myself every day what I did right

I make MYSELF happy first

What do I want

To be happy

To have good friends

A living family

A talent

But most of all

A purpose

And every day I learn more and more about what it is.

But I can never do that

If I leave.

I am damaged

Really damaged

And I do not let it show

But...

Damage leaves a scar

And scars tell a story all their own

So Ivy, I ask you one question

If you leave,

Leave and don't proudly show your scars

What tells your story?

zaffreflare
-VanillaFawn
hollytuft-
sleeplessnights--