Jungkook's POV
I woke up feeling the throbbing pain in my head. I sat up on my bed and it felt like my everything is spinning.
I can't remember how do i manage to come home last night. The last thing i remember is i walk out of the bar
But more than this feeling this physical pain, the emotional pain i'm feeling right now is undescribable. I can't find any reason how could Chaeyoung cheated on me and for pete's sake she is pregnant. She wanted me to believe that I am the father of the baby
I am not and I will never be a father, regardless to whom,when or where because I'm infertile..I can't have a child of my own because I'am useless..infertile...
That day is still clear on my memory when I knew about my condition
Flashback
1 and a half a year ago
I'm here with my mom at Busan District Hospital. We are currently waiting for the results of my laboratory examinations. Its been almost a month since I always feel a throbbing pain on my groin.
It's okay for me to take some test but I feel uneasy to do it here at this hospital specially it is done by Jea Noona.
Honestly Jean Noona and I got into a very awkward relationship since the day I reject her feelings for me. She may be a few years older than me but we are really close to each other like a brother and sister but as we grew older I knew noona started to have romantic feelings for me. I am a guy so I know if someone has a motive or feelings for me.
It was during a close family and friends reunion during chuseok when she finally confessed to me, she even tried to kiss me and seduce me but at the very next day we talked about what happened, she apologize and said that we should just forget that night..
I got back on my senses when I hear my mom called me
"Jungkook??!..hey son,Jea is already here" my mom said
And then I saw Jea noona walking towards her table
"Jungkook, Aunt Seola sorry for keeping you waiting, I just check some of my patients and personally get this results to explain everything to you" she said with a sadness on her voice
"Uhmmm. Its okay Noona, we know you are really busy here in the hospital but you manage to entertain us immediately" i said
"Don't mention it. We are like a family remember" she replied
She suddenly turned and focus on the papers in her hands, she looks bothered and sad.
"Jungkook" she called me still looking and reading the papers on her hands
"ah-yeah No-noona" i replied nervously
She look at my mom and then to me
"I'm sorry Jungkook" she said
"Why Jea?!is Jungkook sick?is it severe?!.is he going to die" my mom histerically replied to noona
"Mom calm down" trying to comfort my mom but deep inside me is like i'm dying of nervousness
"Noona, what does the results say?" I asked her
"Jungkook its uhmm..."
"Noona please just tell me already" i pleaded
"Jungkook, you are...you a... you are infertile" she said almost as a whispher,she is not even looking at me
"Wwh-whhat?" I'am what?" i hear it but i still can't accept it
"I'm sorry Jungkook you are infertile" now she said with conviction
I feel so numb..Then i hear my mom sobbing and said
"Jea are you sure it is Jungkook's results..maybe there are some mistakes there, how can this happen" mom said and she hug me afterwards
"Our hospital is the best hospital here in Busan,you know that Auntie but I'm still going to refer Jungkook to other specialist in Seoul to have a second opinion. Here is his contact number, His name is Doc Kang Haneul, he is based in Ehwa Memorial Hospital".
"Thanks for your time Noona" I got up and run towards the door and went outside
"Jea thanks again for entertaining us, I'm sorry on how Jungkook acted, I'll go now" my mom said as she get the calling card from Jea
"I understand Auntie" Jea replied
I went back to Seoul the next day and went to the hospital Jea noona recommends. after a few days the results are out but I just get the same fucking results. I'm infertile..I can't have my own kids..
Its hard for me to accept my situation, My pride, my ego is shattered. My dream to have my own family just went down to the drain.
Its also the reason why I kept myself being close to woman, As an idol/celebrity, pretty and gorgeous ladies are everywhere but I just focus myself on my craft, to BTS until Chaeyoung came.. I tried to avoid her and suppressed my feelings for her but I failed. I courted her and I am so lucky that she gave me a chance to love her and be his boyfriend. I feel like i'm the luckiest and happiest man on earth the moment she said yes to me..I suddenly forget all my fears and insecurities..
Present
"Jungkook?"Its Rapmon
"Hyung?!why?!" i replied
My bedroom door opened and hyung came in with a glass of water and a medicine in his hands
"Here take this,it will help you feel better" he handed me the glass and the medicine
"Thanks Hyung"
"Take a shower then eat, we need to talk later" he said to me with authority
"but.." then he suddenly hyung interrupted me
"No buts Jungkook. Jennie told me everything" he said
"Okay Hyung" i cant help but to agree, with hyung's tone I know he is angry and is serious to talk to me.
Right then hyung went out of my room
A.N:
Sorry for the late update..i really tried my best to come up and pull through this chapter, honestly there are so many ideas going through my mind but i can't put it in words..lol.i hope that make sense..
I don't have any medical background or knowledge so please bear with me
Thank you for supporting my very first story..I'll try my best to make it better..Just keep the comments, suggestions or criticisms coming it really help me a lot with my writing..
