JOONXBTS!!

╟ YoonJoon/NamGi I ╳ ❝real me❞

Genre: Fluff
Warning: Transgender Character
**Special Warning: I do not mean to offend Namjoon by writing him as a trans male, I just like the plot
Words: 1,068

The way Namjoon realized he was transgender was kind of weird. He came across a quote on his twitter that went 'if your man has bigger boobs than you, tell him he doesn't need a flat chest to be a man'. Imagine little Kim Joo Sa scrolling through twitter and suddenly- boom -'I'm a man??' is running through her (his?) brain.

Then they (they thought staying neutral while they figured themselves out was appropriate and made them feel more comfortable) spent the next month testing out names and identities before they found one they were comfortable with: being transgender. After going through tens of thousands of gender identities he finally settled on transgender. Telling the people he knew was a complicated process. He started by telling his friends, who were very understanding, then his sister and finally his parents.

His parents were confused for a few weeks, messing up his pronouns (though they instantly apologized when they did mess up (luckily)) and looking up information about being transgender before getting used to his identity. When he came out as transgender he didn't have a name he wanted to go by, so he experimented with that, too.

First he went with Jinwoo, which was good but didn't feel right. Then he went with Junho, which he didn't like but was recommended by his friends. Finally he settled on Namjoon after it was recommended by his mother: "You're very smart and talented, it suits you!" were her exact words. After hearing it come out of his mothers mouth, he definitely knew that he was Kim Nam Joon of Ilsan-gu; it had a nice ring to it.

The very last people he told were his classmates. He had long since stopped wearing the uniform skirt and started wearing the pants, making his classmates kind of suspicious. So he though that explaining would be appropriate.

He went to the front of the class, nearly shaking with nerves as thoughts of being bullied for who he his coming and going through his mind. He didn't rehearse what he was going to say, as he wanted it to be sincere, but now he felt like he should've practiced because he was so nervous, he felt like was going to forget the whole alphabet.

"Umm," he started looking around the classroom. He recognized his friends' encouraging faces and his peers' curious ones. There wasn't any projects, so why would he stand up?

"So, uhh, my name is Kim Nam Joon," he wrote it down on the board. "Not Kim Joo Sa, that's not me anymore."

Immediately, some of his peers faces lit up in understanding, some of their mouths opening in silent 'oh's' while others just smiled and leaned back on their chair. The rest of his classmates were still clueless.

"The reason for that change is that, uhh, well," Namjoon scratched his nape that was now exposed as he had cut his hair to a boyish haircut with a curtain fringe. "Umm, I'm transgender."

His classmates eyes widened in surprise, but none of them looked disgusted or reacted negatively, so that was good. Some still looked lost, even more than before, but he was going to explain.

"Uh, me being transgender means I'm not comfortable in my body and I identify as the opposite gender," Namjoon said quickly, preferring to drop the bomb right now for the ones that didn't know instead of waiting into later. "I am a man and would prefer to be addressed as such."

Namjoon looked around his classroom again, seeing some curious faces and a lot of understanding ones, too. "If you have any questions, please feel free to ask."

A hand immediately shot up from the back of the classroom. A student, Taehyung, if he wasn't mistaken, apparently had a question.

"How do you know you just aren't a girl? And, do you still like boys?"

Some people laughed while Namjoon blushed at then last part of the question.

"Umm, I dunno, you just, like, feel it, it's kinda hard to explain," Namjoon answered, scratching his nape again while addressing Taehyung, who was intently paying attention. "And to answer your other question, y-yes, I do still like guys."

Nobody laughed, but people smiled here and there in show of support. He was very thankful that they accepted him, he knew there were people who unfortunately didn't have such luck. A few months after that, on his birthday, his parents gave him his birthday present. That had made sure that their present was the last, and that made him suspicious; they always wanted to be first.

The gift was a simple envelope with nothing written on it, just a blank envelope. He raised an eyebrow and carefully opened the envelope, taking out a simple paper with the words 'I hope you don't mind taking hormones for a year' written on it with black sharpie.

No.

What?!

Namjoon was gawking at the simple ten words written on the paper that had such a big effect on him. Slowly the tears started to come, making him put the paper down and put a hand over his mouth as his shoulders shook with happy sobs. He rushed to his parents' feet, kneeling before them in an ultimate show of gratitude as his tears made their way down his face. His parents soon joined him on the floor, giving him a big hug. He heard his friends and family cooing and even crying in the background at the emotional scene, but he couldn't care. He was so grateful for such good and understanding parents.

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Yoongi noticed the small changes in Namjoon's appearance as the hormones took effect on him. How his voice deepened and his crotch slowly enlarged. Even if he felt kind of weird for noticing the last change, it was considerably noticeable as time went by. He was sure everyone noticed when he came to school and he suddenly had a flat chest. He looked different than he did when he wore a binder, so that wasn't it. He must've had top surgery. Namjoon walked around happy and cheerful, even though he cringed in pain whenever anyone hugged him for a week.

Yoongi was happy for him. He was happy his crush was happy. He wouldn't make a move now. He could wait for Namjoon. Heck, he could wait infinities for Namjoon; so he could wait another year.

a/n: this is legit one of my favorite chapters I've ever written