A peek on their real life (looking through their eyes)

Chapter 19: It's all coming back to me

Sarah’s POV

 

“Sis, dapat pag-usapan niyo yan” ------ hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin maalis sa isip ko ang payo ng mga kaibigan ko.

 

Sa loob ng dalawang buwan, maraming beses kong tinangkang sabihin, pero hindi ko talaga kaya...

Siguro hindi pa tamang panahon para pag-usapan namin ang mga bagay na ganoon.

So, I just let it go and move on with our relationship without addressing it.

I didn’t even realize that it will reflect in my actions towards him.

Kapag lumalabas kami para kumain, I felt uneasy when he’s embracing me, kumakawala agad ako dito.

We seldomly kiss na rin, this month nga, once lang.

Basta, kapag nararamdaman kong papunta na kami doon, I’ll start to change the feel of the environment by raising a topic to discuss or showing him I’m not feeling well at kung anu-ano pang strategy.

Ok lang yung holding hands, pwede rin yung hug pero ‘wag sobra-sobra at ‘wag din dapat matagal. Yung kiss, dapat nga wala munang gano’n, pero pwede na rin siguro, paminsan-minsan lang.

Insert Author’s Note: Sa sobrang conservative ni Sarah, I had to check the calendar, year 2013 naman po ang setting. Talaga lang ganon...

Back to Sarah’s POV

Marahil ang iba, sasabihing ang OA ko o ‘di kaya, ang praning ko naman.

Pero gusto ko lang pangalagaan ang sarili ko.

Gusto ko, buo pa rin ako kapag humarap na ako sa altar, sa harap ng Diyos, kasama ang mapapangasawa ko.

Ang love kasi, kapag sobra-sobra, nakaka-overwhelm. To the point na nakakalimot ka na...

Just like some kisses we’ve shared where we’ve almost lost our control, where it’s hard to think straight anymore and it just so happen that we’re not on the right place at that time. Lucky me!

But what I fear right now is that Matt is also changing...

Matt’s POV

I know there’s something wrong that’s going on between us. We’re nearly losing our intimacy as a couple. Hindi naman ako naghahangad ng bagay na alam kong hindi niya kayang ibigay. I respect her so much and I also respect her parents a lot. Sana lang alam niya yun...

This is one of those nights that I’m really looking forward to, to drink with the boys (because they’re the ones who understand me) and release my frustrations.

Job: Baka magkaproblema ka na sa prostate niyan, pare! (Pang-aasar nito)

Ivan: If you can’t let it out in your own home, then look for another place in the neighbourhood.