Voiceless

Indifferent

Indifferent

Was there a way to just shut out your feelings completely? Because if there is, he desperately need it right now.

He may act indifferent and apathetic but that wasn't true. He was just acting that way so that he wouldn't be able to feel the pain of losing her. He was just acting that way because he did not want to entertain his emotions. 

"I see. I'm not needed anymore, huh?" She sighed downheartedly. "I'll now go then."

A member asked for help in the group chat and when she offered her services, someone else already helped.

And he took this as an opportunity to bully her, just like what he always did.

"That's right. Go away." He spoke. "No one likes you."

Her eyes widened and glistened but she kept her composure. Instantly, he felt guilty for saying that.

"No that is not true. Everyone likes you. I like you." He thought and he wanted to say that but he couldn't bring himself to open his mouth.

"Ok, I'll do that. See you all later." She just said and instead of skipping away like she always did, she walked slowly this time.

And he knew that he hurt her feelings... again. Just like he always did.

He knew he needed to ignore her. She would eventually get over it but he could not stop himself from sending her a message. Before he could stop himself, he sent, "Are you ok?"

Immediately, he received a reply. "I am now. Thank you for your concern, Will. I really love you. :)"

She said those words again, just like she always did. And it took a lot of willpower for him to know that she meant it as best friend love. She was always like that. As long as she loves someone, even if it was just friendship love, she says that.

How to be indifferent? That question continuously ran in his mind.

Because he would very much would like to not care for her. But he could not stop himself.