A Chance at Love (boyxboy) (Completed)

Chapter 2.5 See You Tonight

Well let's look at Matty's point of view then shall we? Aren't you dying to know what he's thinking or feeling? No? Okay, anyways this is just chapter 2, only in Matt's point of view you can skip it or not, it's your choice, the only new thing here is when Matt went home to babysit his cousin Maggie, but nothing much happened there, and of course the fact that it's in Matt's point of view.

Matthew's P.O.V.

I love my pillow, it gives me something to hug, but it feels strange this time, when did my pillow get so big? Oh well. I just want to hug it tighter, and so I did. I pulled it closer to me for a hug, but the funny thing about this is that it's moving, and its warm, what the? It feels like, like, I'm hugging...

Shit.

I opened my eyes, It was dark, I see a hem of a boxer, but it's not mine, wait. Fuck. Could it be? It's J's! Fuck, fuck, fuck. What the hell am I doing? I'm so freaking dead, he's probably gonna kill me in the torture room in the basement even though he says its not true. Fuck.

I looked up at him. Shit! He's awake! Fuck, what do I do. Aaaa!

"Oh, I'm sorry" I said sternly. He looked at me as I retreated my arms that was wrapped around him.

"No its okay, it looked like you were enjoying yourself, and besides it feels kind of nice" He said putting my arms back around him. What? What the actual fuck is going on here?

Then I felt a pair of arms around my back and behind my head. He hugged me back, what the fuck is going on? This is so wrong, but it feels so right, I can't do this to him, can I? Fuck.

"Are you sure this isn't awkward for you?" I muttered. Like hell I don't know the answer, even I feel a little bit awkward, what does he think this is? That's it, I consider our friendship over. I'm dead.

"Are you kidding? This is so awkward for me, but it feels good, don't worry about it" He said. See what'd I tell you?! Damn, but, he said it feels good, yeah I know it feels good, I'm gay, and to be hugging this insanely hot excuse for a human being feels so damn good. He smiled at me, fuck, I just wanna melt now into a puddle and just disappear. I so wanna kiss him right now.

"Ohh, uhh, uhhm" Was all I can say, I can't even form words now, fuck. I feel my cheeks getting warmer. I think they're kinda red now, I hope he doesn't notice. Damn me and my gayness.

"Shh, just sleep, its still early" Noooo, his sexy morning voice is just so. God, kill me now. Fuck. It's like Niall Horan singing to you. My heartbeat is getting more faster, I think I may have a heart attack.

"Ooh, U-uhh, o-okay" I said and nodded, I was hesitating to put my head back down to his oh so hairless chest that I also want to kiss so much. Then he made me nuzzle my head at the crook of his neck, then he constantly stroked my hair, is he messing with me right now? Cause if he is, I don't want him to stop. Ever. Fuck.

I just wanna cry, not even once I felt this kind of caring, especially from just someone I met, this is rare, this is special, he's rare and special, I'd do anything just to save our friendship. Yes friendship, I just want us to stay friends, I can't bear losing someone like him in my life. He gives me comfort, warmth, he makes me feel important, something my previous school didn't give me. I feel loved. Other than my family of course. They've been supportive of me ever since I came out. That's also partly the reason why we moved. I couldn't take anymore the senseless name callings and beatings from those homophobes. I just hope J's not the same as them.

I couldn't fight the soothingness of his hands caressing my hair and my head so I gave in and slept. Sorry for my cursing before, I may be doing a lot more of that in my head.