Heartbroken-Lil Xan

Chapter 9

Diana's POV

Today...

The day I'm meeting the person that ruined my whole life. And is doing it all over again

I ignored everyone's messages. I can't do this.

I pull up at the hotel. Outside there was him

Standing there waiting for me.

"I see you came."Jake says with a smirk on his face

"I didn't really have a choice. Did I?"I ask him

"Let's go inside. I can't wait to kiss you're neck, to hear you moaning my name like the good old times."He says as we start heading inside the hotel

He goes to the reception and says something to the lady that was there and she gives him a key.

This is it. I can't believe I'm doing this
I promised myself I'm not going to do let him get to me ever again and here I am letting him do whatever he wants with me.

"Come on baby girl let's go."He says to me and I follow him to our room

He opens the door and we both walk in. It's a really nice room.

"Come here baby girl."He say to me

I don't have a choice but to do anything that he says.

I walk over to him and look at him. I immediately regret it. Seeing his face. Seeing the guy that ruined my life. Makes me sick to my stomach. But my actions make me sick to my stomach as well.

"Take off you're clothes babe."He says

I follow his orders and take off my clothes only leaving me in my bra and underwear.

Jake starts kissing my neck. This feels so wrong.

He slowly starts to lower his kisses, kissing my neck, then my boobs, then now my stomach

"Do you like it baby girl?"He asks me

"Yes Jake."I say to him

He pulls my hair roughly

"What did you say?"He asks me

"Yes Daddy."I say with tears in my eyes. This reminds me of the times when I was with him. He didn't change and he's never gonna change.

"Good girl. Now take off you're bra and panties."He orders

I do as he says.

He takes off his belt, then his shirt and jeans and pants off.

"Let's do this like the good old times. I know you miss it."He says as he putts my hands up in the air and ties them around  to the bed with his belt

He grabs my hips and roughly inserts himself inside of me and I breath out in shock.
He starts to roughly trust inside of me and grabs a fistful off my hair

"Fuck Diana."He grounds as he continues to thrust inside off me

I fucking hate doing this.

"Fuck Diana, baby I'm gonna cum."He groaned as he released

Jake pulled out and I felt him sitting besides me. I turned my body the other way. I didn't want to see him. I didn't want this to happen

"Baby turn this way."He says as he wraps his arms around my waist. I flinched at his touch. Everything brought me back so many memories.

I turn my attention towards him and saw that he was smiling at me

"I missed you so much Diana."He softly says to me

I look at him dead in the eyes. I hate him

"Didn't you miss me?"He asks me

"Jake how could I miss you. You ruined my life. I would've gave up anything for you. I have you everything I had good. I loved you with all my heart. You destroyed me. Yesterday you called me and blackmailed me. Hew could've I missed you?"I ask him with tears running down my cheeks

"I didn't mean to hurt you."Jake says with tears in his eyes

"But you did. And Jake you knew how much I loved you but you still didn't care. Why did you change like that? Why?"I ask him as my voice cracks

"I don't have an answer for that."He says

"Jake I-I can't stay in here anymore. I'm gonna go."I say as I stand up from the bed and go and grab my clothes

"Diana please don't leave me."Jake says

I "can't Jake. You said that if I would come here you wouldn't post the video. Well here I am. We had sex. You got what you want now I just want you to leave me alone and never contact me ever again."I say to him

"Ok I will never contact you."Jake says

I put my clothes back on and grab my phone and purse.

"I'm gonna go."I say as I walk towards the door

"Diana wait."Jake says

"What is it Jake?"I ask him

"I wanna hug you for the last time."He says

"Ok."I say and we hug for the last time

I pull away from him after 5 seconds and quickly rush to the door and get out.

What did I just do?

I run down the stairs with tears rolling and rolling down my cheeks.
I quickly exit the hotel

My phone rings
It's Dani

I decide to answer because I already know she's worried about me

"OH FOR FUCK SAKES YOU FUCKING DECIDE TO FUCKING ANSWER YOU'RE PHONE RIGHT NOW!"I hear Dani yell

"I'm really sorry I didn't feel well so I slept in like the whole entire day."I lie to her

"You got us so worried. Do you feel better now?"She asks me

"Yeah I fell better."I lied

"Oh ok then bitch I'll see you tomorrow or maybe tonight. Idk I'll tell you later."She says

"Ok love you bish."I say to her

"Love you bish byeee."She says and I quickly hung up before even saying goodbye

I will never feel better. I feel so dirty. I'm a whore. How could I sleep with my abusive ex boyfriend while I am still in a relationship. I hate myself
I hate myself and from this day on I will always hate myself for what I did

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