Heartbroken-Lil Xan

Chapter 11

Diana's POV

Days passed
Weeks passed

I still feel the same. I still feel all this guilt inside of me that is breaking me apart.

I really don't know what to do anymore
Why should I continue to live in a world like this.
Some people think of this world as such a happy place. Living you're life with you're family, you're friends being happy.
Of course I have all of them.

But not happiness. My happiness turned into ashes along with that stupid day. And now everything I can do is sit down, locked up in my room, crying my heart out on the floor.

I sit on the floor crying as I begin to think of all my happy memories that I have.

*flashback*

"Mum! Mum! Look what Santa got me!"5 year old me says with excitement

"What is it sweetie?"My mum asks me

"He got me a barbie doll!"I exclaimed as I start to jump around the living room

"See sweetheart, I told you he was going to get you the Barbie Doll."My mum says

"Hey Santa I know you might be back at the North Pole. I wanted to thank you for bringing me this amazing Barbie doll. I love it."I say and I hug the doll

My parents just smile at me as they see how happy I was. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time. To when I was happy.

*Flashback over*

More tears run down my cheeks as I remember every single happy memories i have from my childhood

I don't want my life to be this way. I just can't live up this way. I'm always sad. I always cry. I just don't want to feel like this. I want to feel normal. To have a normal life again.

*Flashback*

"Hey baby."I hear Grayson say as he hugs me and spins me around

"Hi babe. I missed you."I say to him with a small smile on my face

I can't look him into the eye. I feel so guilty

"Diana, babe are you ok?"Grayson asks me

Oh fuck...
come on Diana come up with a lie. You're the best at lying

"Yeah I'm ok. I was watching Titanic before I came over. You know how I am when it comes to Titanic."I lie to him

"Oh."He says
"Babe. I wanna give you someone."He says

"What is it babe?" I ask him

He pulls out a beautiful necklace necklace.

"Omg Grayson."I say shocked

"Ok so here we go. Diana Martin I love you with all my heart. You make me the happiest man on this planet. I'm so lucky to have you in my life baby. I promise you that I will always love you and I will never cheat on you or do something to hurt you." He says

"I love you too Grayson. I love you so much."I say with tears in my eyes as I hug him

I'm the lucky one to have him in my life not him. He's not lucky to have a whore like me in his life. A person that did something like that to the person that they love.

*Flashback over*

So many Thoughts are running through my head now. Would he miss me. Knowing that I cheated on him. Would anyone miss me if they know the truth

They wouldn't. They would never miss a person like me. I don't deserve these amazing people that I have in my life. And they don't deserve a person like me in their life.

So why should continue to live like this. I would do a favour to the whole world.

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