Orbiting The Moon [Snowbarry]

~2~

A few hours later I decide to go home, I leave star labs without saying goodbye to Cisco or anyone else. I get in my car and drive silently down the streets to my apartment complex. Once I arrive I get out of my car and walk into my apartment. I drop my keys into the tray where I usually keep them before taking my jacket off and walking into my bedroom. I lay my jacket on my bed and walk into the bathroom, I stare at my reflection trying to find something that would make me feel better. I don't find anything, I sigh and start taking off my makeup. My phone rings, I pick it up its Barry.

"Hi Barry, how was jiiters with Iris? Oh, really, wow. Um, that's great Barry, yeah that's great, um... congratulations." I hang up, I slide my back down the wall bringing my knees up to my chest and resting my head on top of them.

I push back tears as I replay my most recent conversation with Barry. I can basically feel my heart being ripped into prices. I imagine iris and Barry tearing my heart out of my chest, pulling it in half, then stepping on it over and over again. It becomes harder to breath and keep tears from pouring over my eyelids. It only becomes harder to do anything, move, think, breath, live. I close my eyes and try to imagine a world where I'm with Barry. It works for a little bit, or it worked until iris came and ripped my heart into a million pieces.

I open my eyes, a tear falls down my face, I wipe it away and try to gain my composure. My phone buzzes, it's Barry. I don't want to answer but I know he'll start to worry if I don't. I tap accept and press my phone against my ear.

"Hi Barry." I say.

"Hey, you okay?" He asks.

"Yeah, fine." I lie

"Well I just wanted to say thank you." Barry said.

"Oh," I whisper, my heart begins to hurt.

"Are you okay?" Barry asks again.

"Fine," I whisper, I hear Barry sigh.

"Can I come over?" He asks.

"What about Iris?" I ask.

"What about her?" Barry questions, I frown.

"Won't she be jealous of you and I spending time together?" I ask quietly.

"No, she know we're just friends."

Just friends those words cause more tears to burn in my eyes. "Yeah, okay you can come over." I whisper.

"Okay, see you in a sec." I hang up and rest my head in my hands, then I realise that he's being serious and he's actually gonna be here soon.

I look in the mirror and practice a smile, once I find one that works I leave my bathroom. In case you didn't know a smile hides a lot. Seconds later I heard a knock on my door, I opened it there in front of me was Barry Allen.

"Hey Caitlin." He said, his smile was as bright as it's ever been.

"Hey." I say, he enters my apartment.

"Are you okay?" He asks again.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be." I say quickly.

"You're just, on the phone it sounded like you were trying not to cry." Barry said, I feel tears in my eyes; I force them back.

"I'm fine." I whisper, I know Barry hears my voice crack because he comes up and hugs me tightly. Tears dance on my eyelids but I don't let them fall.

"Cait, it's okay to cry." Barry says, and with those words tears spill over my eyelids and down my pale skin. We stand there me sobbing into Barry's shoulder and Barry hugging me. "Let's sit down." Barry says softly, I nod and let Barry lead me to the couch. We sit, silent tears streaming down my face. "Cait, why are you crying?"

"Cisco is mad at me." I blurt out, even though that's a lie. I mean it not a lie it's just not why I'm crying.

"Why?" Barry asks.

"I wouldn't let him read a piece of paper." I mumble.

"Why?"

"I-I." I stutter, to be honest it's because no one knows the truth.

"What does the paper say, if you don't mind me asking?" I bit my lip, before handing Barry the paper. "May I read it?" He asks, I nod slowly.

"But read it in your head." I say, he nods. I rest my head on his shoulder and wait for his reaction. He looks at me before taking my hand and squeezing it sending a wave of energy into my body.

"Cait, whoever this is referring to is obviously an idiot for not seeing how amazing you are, and you should probably stop helping them." Barry says.

little does he know that it's really about him.