Orbiting The Moon [Snowbarry]

~19~

"And I bleed when I fall down, I'm only human and I crash and I breakdown."

"How is he?" Cisco asks.

"He hasn't changed." I mumble, I chew on my lip, my nails dig into my palms.

"Caitlin," Cisco says, he takes my hand and looks at my palm. "Oh my gosh your bleeding."

"It's fine," I say taking my hand away from him. "Sometimes when I get nervous I clench my fists." Cisco nods, he looks at the machine hooked up to Barry.

"Caitlin, you do see what I see right?" Cisco asks but it sounds like a statement.

"Yes," I whisper.

"Then why are you not doing anything?"

"I have to save him." I say.

"Will you at least go home, maybe eat and sleep." I shake my head.

"No, no I can't, I have to stay here."

"How is letting yourself fall apart helping anyone?"

"I fell apart a long time ago." I whisper. That's the difference between people and clocks. You can tell exactly when a broken clock stopped ticking. With people it's much harder, sometimes you can't even tell they're broken.

"If I brought you something to eat would you eat it?"

"No, I need to focus." I say.

"Caitlin!" Cisco yells. "You have to take care of yourself!"

"I'm fine Cisco."

"No your not, you haven't eaten or slept in days!"

"Because I can save him!" I yell dryly.

"No you can't, but Caitlin you can save yourself!"

"I'd rather it be me."

"What?"

"I'd rather die, if it means that Barry will live."

"Your impossible." Cisco says walking away.

I walk over to Barry.

"Here's the difference between you and me, if I die you will survive but if you die; it will destroy me. So please Barry I'm begging you please wake up, please." I begin to cry, all my emotions boil up to the surface, I don't know what to do except scream.

I scream and then breakdown sobbing. I curl myself into a ball on the floor and let myself cry. I feel so many emotions, I'm not even sure what I'm feeling. I know I have to be strong, but it's so hard.

I close my eyes and try to stop myself from crying, but it doesn't work. It's like my body have given up the will to stop myself from crying. I can't think clearly, my brain is rattled by everything that's been going on. All I want right now is to fall asleep.

A/n: well then, this is really short.