She Used To Be Mine (Camila/you)

Love is A Losing Game

Camila's POV
Once I made sure that y/n was staying, I walked back slowly to the front.

I stopped and wiped my tears.

I'm just really scared of fucking up again.

"You ok?", Austin asked.

"No", I replied.

"Wow you guys aren't even officially together and she's already making you cry", he said.

"No you're making me cry", I corrected.

"I don't know what your point was of coming here", I added.

"I want you back", he said.

"Were you not just witnessing anything? I love y/n and I want to be with her", I said.

"I know you still love me. I was stupid and just being an asshole when I did those things and I'm so sorry. I would've never thought that I would lose you", he said.

I sighed and looked down.

"I love you", he said making me look at him.

"I don't feel the same", I said quietly.

"Were you cheating on me with her? Was that it?", he asked.

"Of course not and I can't believe you would even ask me that", I said.

"I mean you guys were always together before", he said.

"Yea and you became too jealous", I said.

"Because I love you babe", he said.

Hearing that made me feel bad I used to love when he said it but now it doesn't feel right.

"Don't call me that", I said.

"You loved when I called you that", he said softly. "And all it took was a few days for you to get over me. Now I know how she felt. Will it take three years to come back to me?", he asked.

"Don't fucking do that", I said getting upset.

"It's the truth and the sooner you realize that the better. How long will I be gone before you realize that you made a huge mistake. Maybe I should leave the city too", he said.

"We wouldn't be here if you hadn't done that", I said.

"What did she say to get you back like that?", he asked.

"It wasn't like that", I said.

"You sure? Because it seemed way too fast and I'm pretty sure you were with her when we were together", he said.

"For the last time I didn't cheat on you", I said getting frustrated.

"Right", he said. "Well let me know when you leave her broken again", he added.

"Get out", I yelled and he left.

I closed the door and rested my head against it as I cried.

He just ruined everything. I finally got y/n to trust me a tiny bit again and I'm pretty sure she's not going to want to be with me because of this.

I stayed out for a little while longer before wiping my tears and slowly walked back into the room.

I entered and she slowly looked up at me.

"Y/n", I began.

"Don't", she said cutting me off. "Just don't", she said.

I remained quiet.

"He's right", she said.

"What are you talking about?", I asked walking closer.

"It was too fast", she said.

"Y/n no", I said.

"It's true and I thought I could do this again but now I don't know", she said which broke my heart.

"Can we just go back to before he came please?", I asked crying.

"We can't", she said.

"Why?", I asked.

"Because I need a little time Camila", she said.

"For what?", I asked.

"He's right you moved on from me quickly and you moved on from him quickly, how do I know that it won't repeat?", she asked.

"Because I love you", I said holding her hand.

"Yea but to be honest I", she trailed off.

"You what?", I asked.

"I stupidly rushed back into this without really thinking it through", she said.

"If you're worried about me hurting you I promise I won't", I said.

"I don't even know if I can still believe in your promises anymore", she said.

I felt a pang in my chest. I let go of her hand and got up.

"Well take all the time that you need. I'll still be here", I said using my sleeves to wipe my tears.

"Camila", she began.

"No it's fine you're right I wouldn't trust me either", I said.

"I'm sorry I'm not trying to hurt you", she said.

"I know but the truth hurt sometimes right", I said.

She nodded and looked up at me.

"I guess I should go", she said.

I swallowed the lump in my throat as she walked closer. I had my arms folded across my chest but she moved it.

She brought me into a hug and I cried in her shoulder.

"I feel like I'm losing you again", I cried.

"You aren't. I'm not leaving you I just need to really think about everything", she said.

I nodded and she pulled away.

She caressed my cheek before pulling me into a kiss.

I kissed her for as long as I could.

"I'll make you trust me again", I whispered.

"I'm sure you will", she said smiling sadly before pecking my lips once more.

She let go of my hands and walked out.