ASR...
Arnav Singh Raizada....
Bahut ghamand tha mujhe apne naam par.
(I had too much ego inside me)
Apni zindagi par.
I was proud of my life)
Aur aaj bas akelapan hai.
(And today its all about my loneliness)
Dard aur taqleef hi saathi ban gaye hain.
(Pain and hurt is all the company that I have now)
Aur main yahi deserve karta hun. Mere sath to isse bhi bura hona chahiye.
(And this is what I deserve. This is nothing I should be punished ore severely)
Aaj main haar gaya Khushi. Main haar gaya. Tumne kaha tha jab mujhe bhagwan ke hone ka ehsaas hoga ye baat batane ke liye tum mere sath nai hogi.
(I lost today Khushi. I lost. You once said to me that when I will realize that god exists in this world you wont be near me to tell me that).
Kaash tumpe maine bharosa kia hota. Kaash ki baat meri kidnap hone ki hadd tak na pahunchti. Kaash tum uss pahaadi se na giri...
(I wish I had trusted you. I wish that things did not escalate to the point of my kidnapping. I wish you did not fall from that cliff)
Tumse to nafrat thi aur aaj kami lgti hai
Tumhari muskaan nai pasand thi aur ab marta hun uske liye
Tumko kabhi khud se door kia tha aaj tumhe mehsoos karna chahta hoon.
(I once felt hatred for you and today I hate your absence
I disliked your smile and now I die to see it once
I distanced myself from you and now I wanna feel you close to me)
Kaash main bhi tumhare sath hi mar jaata...
(I wish I would have died along with you..)
Kaash main bhi iss dunia se chala jaata...
(I wish I would have left this world too..)
Finally the bottle of whiskey is all empty...huh...
Now darkness can envelop me like always. This pain will reduce minutely and I can watch Khushi in my dreams.
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