Morning light Remdy ( Mpreg ) Boy X Boy

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Remington's p.o.v.

Andy is amazing. I'm glad I found him. But one thing is that I'm falling for him, like hard. But who wouldn't, he is like an angel and the most amazing guy I've met.

I just have to be careful tho, I don't want to get hurt. Last time I tried getting in a relationship, the person cheated on me and I ended up getting hurt.

But know what? I always end up getting hurt, cause everyone I love always leaves me, cause I'm a depressed emo. And no one wants to be around me, besides Andy of course.

He's all I got, I have no one else but him. I have no family, no frens, and no where to go. I'm lost in my own mind with my suicidal thoughts.

Why am I still here you might ask? Well let me tell you this, I'm here because I have finally found my soul mate. Without him, I probably would be already dead.

But I'm not gonna let death get in the way of anything. I'm gonna try to be happy for once and try to be alive for once.

I just have to push my thoughts away and move on, but it's gonna be hard to do, since I've let my thoughts get the best of me.

The reason why I wear so many bracelets on both my wrists is due to cutting. No body knows this, well besides the person whose reading this book.

I just can't handle my depression well. It's hard you know. Being in a depressing world and surrounded by your thoughts, it's hard to control your emotions.

I try so hard, but I always gave in and let my thoughts get the best of me.

But that doesn't mean I'm gonna give up so easily. I'm not that weak. But I'm not that strong either.

Either way I'm not gonna let it get the best I me. I gotta keep fighting and stay strong, but I'm not gonna lose without a fight.

I just can't take this anymore. I wanna give up, but I don't wanna give up so fast. I know I'm stronger than this and I know I can win this battle. I just gotta keep fighting.