Change of Heart (Shigatsu Wa Kimi No Uso/ YLIA Fanfiction)

Seventeen: Memories

A/n: Forgive me for taking this chapter for so long. Even so, I hope you like this newest chapter. :)

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Arima Kousei POV:

As I am lying down my bed in the hospital with a cast on my right hand, I couldn't help but see visions of the past which is truthfully painful for me. I tried to distract myself but I couldn't help but see it. Unbearable pain coursed through my spine and soon, I was screaming for help. I am spinning around until I crashed down. To my surprise, I could see my young self in front of me and I am transparent. I tried to touch my young self but I couldn't.

My younger self was wearing all white and locked up in a narrow hospital room. It's obvious that he is filled with fear, agony, and despair. He doesn't seem to know what's going on around him. Right now, I'm watching myself and standing in front of him. I wonder if what I am seeing were really my own.

If it's my memories, why am I seeing this now? Is it possible to remember memories from when I was deeply drowning inside my water world? I remember that I couldn't even breathe on my own and the tortures I received through so many needles and medicines given to me when I was in the asylum. I remember getting dragged on my feet with a handcuff behind me. There were a lot of strange syringes that the nurses and doctors bring inside my room for a long time while I am locked up. That day, I looked outside the narrow room where my depressed self was hugging his own self. What was it that's bothering me all this time that I ended up inside? I remember... I was refusing to accept that my father passed away in front of me and that I tried to save him. A few moments later, I saw two people stare at the transparent glass.

My young, depressed self noticed them, too. There's only a slight crack at the glass so that I'll be able to breathe oxygen and hear people outside the room. When he looked at them, that made me see that I had blank eyes.

Did I have those eyes for three years? I still can't believe that my eyes were so lifeless before. Was it that difficult for me to accept my father's death?

My hands went into a fist. My anger rose up more when I have noticed who the people were in front of me. Those people were the reason I was locked inside a mental institution and I was forced to hide beneath my shell to protect myself from the pain that my father passed away.

A beautiful girl wearing a pink yukata was looking straight at me through the glass. Her brown eyes were on fire and her red lips were smiling incredibly at me while she watches my young, depressed self squirm in fear. She looked very satisfied while my younger self stares at her blankly.

A young man stood behind him who smiled at me but his eyes looked sad. The woman looked so happy that I am locked up inside the narrow, white room. I know that the young man behind her was Okata Jun.

"If he gets out of his depression, do all your best to kill him. He's going to be a barrier to my plans. Since you take pity on him, I will spare him for now. I will be the new leader of Japan. I will destroy everything and return the pride of the Japanese Royalty! Our punishment is enough. I will be Queen!"

"I know that you know he will be able to get out of this place. Why aren't we moving against the government and your own family, yet?"

She laughed. "I have more plans before we attack. You can't just attack the government. We need more people and allies! More pawns! You swore to me that you will be my Knight, aren't you? You swore to me that you will make me Queen and you will be able to become a Prince!"

"What if I fail to kill him for the second time?"

She gripped his neck. "Hide before I kill you. You're an illegitimate child and I am your older sister. You will obey everything I order you! You're an important black chess piece. You know that you do have to keep jumping through everyone. I can do everything that I want and move in all directions as I am Queen!"

After that, he looked at her angrily and pitied me after she left. "I was only following orders. Forgive me for staining my hands with blood to kill your father. Kill me when you see me again," he spoke to me while I am looking at him inside the narrow room. I don't even know if I do understand him at that time but it does seem that I do as my eyes are focused on him. "When I say that I will destroy you when we meet again, I hope you remember what transpired between us and what I asked you to do for me. I know you can hear me. Stop the Princess no matter what! Give your father who's my closest friend in the Secret Service, justice. I am still a secret agent hired by your father. He ordered me to kill him and lock you here for a while to protect you. You are what she really wants. I can't let her kill you. Save Japan. I will be there to support you."

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Female voices distracted me that I got out of my dreams. "Wake up! Wake up, Kousei!"

I opened up my eyes and looked at who was calling me. As my eyes adjust to the light, I realized who was calling me. "Kaori? Seto-san?"

The two of them looked relieved after they saw me awake already. "You made me worry," Kaori told me as she hugs me.

I hugged her back. "Worry you? Why? What happened?"

"You were shaking and crying! The doctors told us that you are having nightmares!" she answered.

My hands went into a fist. "I wasn't having nightmares. I believe I am remembering some of my memories when I was in the asylum."

They looked at me surprisingly. "Really? Can you tell us now?"

I refused to tell them for a while. The police and everyone involved with me has to hear it. The memory I recovered is more important than the message in the musical piece. Why did Okata Jun act like the real culprit if the fake, kind princess is truly the person who's pulling the strings? What does she hold against him that makes him stay with her?

"Everyone involved with me has to know. The memory I recovered is the most important clue to what's going on and I do think I already know the reason why it was so important that they kill me," I answered her. "It's time to get the mask of the evil princess off and unveil her true color. I also can't do what he wants me to do. I won't kill him. I have to save him."

"Who are you talking about?" Seto Hiroko-san asked me.

"Okata Jun. I have to save him. He's in trouble," I answered them which brought them to be shocked by what I said.

"Isn't he the man who killed your father?" Seto Hiroko-san asked me.

"He's not the man you think he is," I answered them.

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A/n: It took me a long time to write this chapter! I do wish you like this! Don't forget to vote and comment!

Dedicated to: Genjirules OtonashiRen and LukasTobing.