I'm NOT a faggot (UNDER EDITING)

- Chapter 36 -

Pov Jason
"You'll never have to work in your entire life! It's just insane!" Nate stated as we drove to school. I was actually glad that the numbers took his mind of my killing spree a half year ago.
"Maybe scream it a bit louder, they haven't heard it on the moon yet" I joked. Don't take me wrong, I was super happy he was still talking to me. But everything was about my secret riches and I just thought that was kind of annoying. He rolled his eyes and looked at me.
"But seriously Jace" he said.
"What are you going to do with so much money?"
"I'm supporting charities and stuff" I said.
"Doing something good with it, you know..."
I saw the school coming into to view and sighed.
"And now stop talking about it. If someone finds out I-I wouldn't know what to do"
"I get it" he sighed and became quiet. The silence between us was weird, not like anything we had before. But I guess Nate just didn't know me like that before. He didn't knew what I had been through but now he does and I'm not saying I regret telling him but... I don't know.
"Hey guys" Sim smiled.
"So we're good now? Right?"
"Yeah Sim, don't worry" I said and forced a smile.
"I-it's not like it's the end of the world so..."
"But we're here to support you, you know that" Sim said as Sander joined us.
"We're friends for a reason, you know"
"I know" I smiled sadly and looked at Nathan. He hadn't said a word...
"Hey Nate, everything okay?" I asked and he shot up out of thought.
"Y-yeah, yeah I'm fine, don't worry" he said.
"You seemed to be pretty far away" Sim joined in.
"I was just thinking" he shrugged like it was no big deal. But I knew he was lying. He was probably thinking about me and my blood money or the illegal weapons or my killer instinct or my mental health issues... There was so much wrong with me even I forgot some of it! I slowly took his hand, not knowing if he would react to it or not. But he didn't pull away and I smiled, pulling him closer to me and leaning on his shoulder.
"Guess the love birds are back" Peter complained.
"I've got the feeling you rather see them apart than together" André joked and Peter flinched.
"What makes you think that all of the sudden?" Peter asked with a nervous chuckle.
"It was just a joke, relax" André laughed.
"I know, muttonhead" Peter muttered and took his bag.
"Class is almost gonna start, are you coming or not?"
He looked at Sander, who was in his class.
"Yeah, I'm coming, just a sec" he said as he picked up his bag and followed Peter inside.
"He's got a crush on me" Nate whispered to me and the bell rang.
"What?" I asked surprised.
"When? How long?"
He shrugged and let my hand go.
"He told me a week ago when you were in hospital but he knows I love you so don't worry"
"If he tries something-"
"He won't" Nate assured me with a smile.
"I won't hesitate to finish him if he can't keep his hands of you" I whispered while looking him in the eye.
"You're mine"
"I-I know..." he stuttered as he got away from me, to his class. Great. Now I scared him off! What was wrong with me?! Ever since John beat me up I haven't been the same... The violence had returned to my life, just when it started to get normal again... Maybe I reached a wall? Maybe I reached my breaking point? One step over the line and there was no going back... I needed to calm myself, ignore the things that have happend. But never forget. Never ever forget.

"So how is the dream team doing?" Ella asked during lunch.
"I heard Jason lives with Nathan now"
"Only until his house is rid of all the blood trails" Nate said and I flinched. Ever since Jackson died I just couldn't handle blood anymore. It wasn't a problem before but now... Everything reminded me of him and I think it's guilt chasing me. Thinking that he would still be alive, that he would've survived if I didn't shot him...
"Can we talk about something else?" I asked as I displayed all my medication on the table, taking what I had to take.
"Sure" Sim said and grinned.
"Cause I know that there's only one bed in Nate's room"
"Ooooh, love birds in action!" André called out.
"Like sleeping in the same bed has to be sexual" Nathan stated a bit red.
"So you admit you sleep together" Simon grinned.
"Okay, yes, Nate and I sleep in the same bed. What's the big deal?" I asked annoyed as I took my last pill.
"We're a couple, it's not weird or anything"
"So something happend?" Ella said on an asking tone and I rolled my eyes while Nate turned red.
"Omg, something happend!"
"I don't get why you're making a big deal out of this" I stated and looked at Ella.
"At least I'm a virgin"
"Ooooh!" André and Sander exclaimed and pointed at Ella.
"BB!" André laughed.
"BB?" Sim asked.
"Burn Bitch" André explained.
"Wait, you're not a virgin anymore?" Nathan asked with wide eyes and stared at Ella. She just shrugged and smiled.
"I guess that's what you get if you're friends with Emily"
"Spoken of Emily, has anyone seen her lately? She seems to have disappeared" Peter said as he joined us at the table. I glared at him for a second, swinging my arm around Nathan and pulling him closer.
"Yeah, she's to ashamed to come outside" Sander said.
"Her parents are sending her to a girls boarding school next year to teach her how to behave"
"Wait really?" I asked with big eyes.
"That's a bit extreme, isn't it?" Nate asked. He felt guilty, I could see it in his eyes. It was his fault she changed that much and became who she was. If they only had a chance to make things up...
"Well, that's what happening" Sander said.
"It's for the best that way" Peter said.
"The sooner she's gone the better if you ask me"
"I guess you're right..." Nate sighed and stared at the table.
"I just... Something doesn't feel right about this"
"She got it coming Nate" André stated.
"And her grades weren't that great so I think it would've happend either way"
"If you say so" I said and looked at Nathan.
"Everything okay?"
"Y-yeah, just thinking" he said with a sad smile.
"I love you, you know" I stated and gave his a quick kiss.
"I know" he said but didn't say it back. He never returned the words... And that made me more worried than I would like to admit.