Chapter 13
I don’t think I’ve ever been more confused in my entire life. I’ve been tossing and turning all night long, my thoughts keeping me awake yet again, also a bit because my dad had hit my arm a few times last night and they were a pain to sleep on now. I felt like a jerk for leading Vic on and then shutting him down after. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Here he is, actually trying to be my friend, and I’m just making it hard for him. I wouldn’t blame him if he didn’t want to be my friend anymore. My biggest problem though is the fact that I like him and im still not sure if we should actually date. I feel like something would tear us apart, like the world will create something to throw at us like it always does. I let out a long hard sigh, exhausted from not being able to sleep.
I rolled out of my bed and went to my bathroom where we keep all of our medicine. I grabbed some of my sleeping pills I used to take and swallowed 2, in hopes they would help. I decided to go to my kitchen and have something quick to eat before going back to bed, it was after all 2:30am and I had to be up in 5 and a half hours. I grabbed a bowl and poured myself some cereal, not caring about how loud I was because my dad was passed out and barely anything wakes him up. I ate my food quickly and walked back to my room, collapsing on the bed. I just wish an idea on what to do would pop in my mind already.
I felt like I hadn’t got any sleep last night, but I know I did fall asleep at one point because here I am awake now. I crawled out of bed, feeling the same I had last night. I pulled on my casual clothing and walked out to see my dad not awake yet, not that I cared today. I didn’t bother eating because I wasn’t hungry. So I slung my bag over my shoulder and walked out of my house to walk to school, figuring Vic wouldn’t be picking me up, that was until I got a text from him.
Vic: I’m coming to get you now.
I was surprised he’d actually want to pick me up after I shut him down yesterday. I tried to think of something to say to him. Maybe he wanted to act like nothing happened between us yesterday which I would be okay with completely. I stood there awkwardly waiting to get picked up and then I saw his car coming towards me. My stomach began to rise in anxiety and I didn’t know whether or not I should act like I didn’t see his text and run inside, or toughen up. Before I could make my decision, his car was parked right in front of me.
“Get in” he said, not sounding exactly pleased to see me.
I dropped my head in sorrow and walked to the side of the car and hopped in the front, only to realize Mike wasn’t in the car today.
“Where’s Mike?” I instantly asked, knowing if he isn’t here this was going to be one hell of an awkward ride to school.
“Made him walk, you and I need to talk” he stated and I felt like I was going to vomit all over his car in nerves.
“Okay” I simply said, not sure if I could choke out any other words.
He started up the car and started to drive away towards the school, I guess he wanted to talk there or something. My mind was racing with something I could say. I didn’t exactly know how this conversation was going to go. I get that he’s mad at me but from my perspective, it’s not like it’s that bad, right? The car parked, sooner than I wanted it too, because I still hadn’t thought of what to say. The bell had already gone so the parking lot was empty. Vic turned to me and stared at me for a little while, I kept looking straight.
“Look at me Kellin” he said and I slowly moved my head towards him, my eyes meeting his.
“So…” I said awkwardly
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Fear Wont Last Forever
FanfictionVic and Kellin are both new to high school in San Deigo. Kellin is forced to live with his abusive father, but when he meets Vic they connect. That is until Vic starts to become popular and lets his ego get the better of him, leaving Kellin behind (...