The Freak With The Pink Hair

For Good

"Tu es mignon," she told Seth as they lay on the bed in his room, studying for their french midterm

"Tu es beau," he replied and she smiled and shook her head lightly

"Beaux yeux marron," she said, getting closer to him

"Je suis un morse," he said and she threw her head back and laughed

"You're a walrus?" She asked and he blushed and started sputtering as he looked into his book in embarrassment

She tilted his chin up and smiled at him

"Je veux un bisou," he said and she grinned

"Oui oui monsieur Rollins," she said and leaned in to press a light kiss to his lips

He smiled when she pulled back and she returned his smile

"I love you," Seth said, brown eyes shining and Addison froze

"Seth," she began

"I know," he cut off

"I'm sorry," she said and he smiled and pecked her lips again

"It's okay," he told her

She was walking back home and she felt her heart breaking. The smile on Seth's face said he was fine but the sadness in his eyes told her he was anything but fine

She hated that she didn't have feelings for him but she couldn't just fall in love with him, especially since she was in love with Dean, another thing she hated. Why couldn't she just want Seth? Who loved her, even with all her broken parts.

She really, really enjoyed Seth's company. Really enjoyed his presence in her life and how he loved everything. Dean was the opposite, Dean was quite cynical and had disdain for alot of  people but Seth? Nah, Seth was wide eyed and smiling all the time. As if the sun gave him a gift every morning, actually, Seth was sunshine. Warm, bright, comforting and just always there

Seth's eyes told volumes, his emotions were always present. His ability to sneak up on someone and wrap his arms around them and just never let go made her feel so safe and secure

Seth was a good guy. Addison sighed when she thought about it.

-The Next Morning-

"Good morning Addison," she heard from beside her as she walked towards her locker, she turned her head and then smiled

"Good morning Roman," she replied

"Are you ready for our french test?" He asked her

"Oui oui," she replied with a bigger smile

"Can I ask you something?" He asked, nervously biting his lip

"Of course," she said, stopping by her locker as he stopped with her

"Do you like Seth?" He asked her and she looked at him

"It's just, you know, Seth's my best friend and I don't want him get hurt. He really likes you," he explained and Addison smiled

"Seth knows how I feel," she simply said, the last thing she needed was someone prying themselves into her life

She was walking to music class when a hand shot out and grabbed her, yanking her into the janitor's closet

"What the-" a hand was over her mouth before she could have finished

"Seth knows how you feel?" Dean asked through gritted teeth

"What's your fucking problem?" She asked him, pushing his hand away from her face

"What does Seth feel for you huh? He's in love with you right?" Dean asked, jaw clenched

"What does it matter?" She asked him

"You love him?" He asked her, tilting his head

"That ain't your business," she replied coldly

"Addison, I don't understand why you hate me because I changed, no one liked the way I was before," he admitted with an exhausted shrug

"I liked the way you were before. Hell, I was in love with you Dean." She admitted

"You were in love with me?" He asked her and she rolled her eyes

"Oh for goodness sake, I was practically worshipping the ground you walked on. I love you Dean, you think Renee loves you for who you are? Newsflash, she doesn't." Addison told him

"You think Seth loves you?" He asked and she folded her arms

"Does he know about the songs that you sing when you're alone? Your favourite band and the way that you dance? The way you get the little crinkles by your mouth when you smile or how you pout when you miss an episode of Golden Girls? Does he know the way you change moods or how you named your guitar after your mom?" Dean asked and when Addison hesitated, he shook his head

"No he doesn't. I know all those things. He claims he loves you but he doesn't know half the things I know about you," he said and she sighed

"What're you trying to say Dean?" She asked, already exhausted

Dean bounced on his toes a little before he surged forward and put his hand under her chin and pressed their lips together and then the door opened

"Addison? I thought I heard you in-" Seth froze

Dean's lips were against Addison's and Seth felt everything that kept his heart together, he felt it shatter

"Seth," Addison said in shock as Seth simply turned around and walked away

"Seth, please wait, I'm sorry," Addison desperately apologized as she chased after him

"I don't know what came over me I just cou-" but he cut her off

"Whatever Addison. I should've known, it's him you want. I never had a chance did I?" He asked, bitterly

"We'll still be friends Seth," she offered

"I don't think that's the best idea. I don't wanna be around you. It's best we don't talk anymore, save myself the pain and embarrassment," he said and before Addison could respond, he turned on his heels and walked out of school

She stood in the hallway, alone with tears in her eyes, that was it. Seth just ended their friendship. He took piece of her with him, she hurt him so he hurt her back. That was it, she was tired of losing people. She texted her dad that she was leaving school early and after getting the 'okay' she left.

She was tired of everyone leaving her. She was fed up of being hurt by the people she let into her life. She made up her mind, she was gonna do it. She was gonna end her suffering, for good.

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Tu es mignon~ you're cute

Tu es beau~ you're beautiful

Beaux yeux marron~ beautiful brown eyes

Je suis un morse~ I am a walrus

Je veux un bisou~ I want a kiss

Oui oui monsieur Rollins~ yes, yes Mr. Rollins