I just remembered the time I asked you if you liked me...
It was about two years ago...
I was curious and told you a "bird" had told me you liked me... in other words your sister told me you liked a person with my name... that is specifically a generation bellow (he's a year older than me).
I remember you asking me insistently who that person was... after a while of asking me I gave in and told you...
I immediately felt bad and told you not to let her know I told you.
You asked me "Why?" And I just made up a random reason but in reality:
I felt bad because I didn't want you two to fight over something I felt... wasn't that important... I mean, you are important but my emotions can come second. My reason for feeling bad is that... when I was little I didn't have the best friendship with my middle brother and I remember I used to fight with him over really small stuff... and seeing how close you are (to my eyes) toward your sister I didn't want to be the reason you two discussed about something.
I know it sounds crazy and probably over exaggerated but I honestly NEVER want to be the reason for something bad in your life. If anything I want to be the person you can rely to tell anything... and as I've said before it doesn't matter if what you'll say will hurt me... I don't mind if you talk about a crush on someone who isn't me... I will always put you before my own feelings, because... I know that even though it hurts your happiness will be enough to... maybe not fix the pain but... to act as a band aid to my broken heart.
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Dream On Fire
العاطفيةI didn't notice how much you meant to me until I found myself crying over you. I guess... I did love you then... "The hardest part is not gaining you but, letting go..." I can remember your name... You'll be FC, the simplicity doesn't matter... The...
