I can help you if you want it

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( this chapter has some lyrics from the song above)

⚡ Colby's POV ⚡

I woke up at about ten AM and didn't see Joe next to me but I did see a note.

Hey sorry if I scared you I'm getting us all some breakfast from Denys ~ Love Joe

I smile and get up walking to Jon's room. " Hey Jo- what's wrong? " I ask seeing him crying. He looks at me and pats the bed next to him. I walk over and sit down. " Me and Renee broke up " He mumbles while hiccuping. I give him a sad smile and hear Joe walk in the front door. " Well we got Denys from Joe " I said trying to make him a little happier. He smiles a bit as Joe walked in. " Oh shit man what's wrong? " Joe ask handing me the food. I move over a little so Joe can sit down. " What happened Jon? " Joe ask worried because Jon was literally sobbing to the point he had to breathe out his mouth because his nose blocked up. " Me and Renee broke up " Jon explains to him. " Why? " Joe ask. I give Jon his Denys along with Joe. " The cigarettes on the counter weren't her friends they were her mates " Joe gives a sad smile but I can tell he's angry. " What's that mean? " I ask referring to the cigarette thing. " She cheated " Joe says hugging Jon. I call her a bitch under my breath and eat my food.

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It's like nine PM now. Jon hasn't left his room at all. He ate the Denys this morning but that is it. Joe is laying next to me looking at his phone like always. " Joe let's go check on Jon " I say getting up walking to Jon's room. He follows me and we sit on the bed. Jon's on his phone looking at pictures of him and Renee, crying. Joe sighs. " Come on man that's going to make you even more sad " Joe says. Jon shrugs and continues looking at the pictures. " I know you love her but it's over mate. Take it easy and put the phone away. " Jon sighs and looks at me. " We can talk about it? " I suggest. Sometimes that helps because then your not bottling feelings in. " Yeah man talk to us about it. What's the thought process your having right now? " Joe ask. " Man she cheated. That doesn't mean she didn't love you. It means that she happened to love you and another man. " Me saying that made it worse apparently because he started crying more. " It's not the fact that she kissed him yesterday, it's the feeling of betrayal that I can't seem to shake. " Jon mumbles. " She only kissed him? " Joe ask making me slap him. Jon nods. " Was she drunk? " Joe ask. " No but she had feelings for him " Jon explains. Jon tells us everything he knows about the dude who is named Colton and how she developed feelings and all that.

1 hour later

Joe was in my room sleeping. I was in Jon's room just chatting with him. I don't really want him to be alone. I've actually been cheated on before by a guy I dated in high school. Also yes I'm gay. Joe's bisexual and Jon's straight. I remember yesterday when Joe asked Jon about his gun. I know he was lying about the gun because he tends to look at the ground when he lies. But Joe doesn't know that Jon used to cut himself and stuff. He knows he used to be depressed which he still is because depression doesn't go away once your clinically diagnosed with it. " Hey Jon? " He walks out the bathroom brushing his teeth. " Yeah? " He ask. " Why do you have a gun? And don't lie. " He shrugs and walks back in the bathroom. " You wouldn't understand "
" Well I can try to " I hear him sigh as he walks back out the bathroom then comes over and sits in his bed. " Come on you can tell me I'm your brother. "

" I keep it in case I ever want to commit suicide, ok? " My jaw drops a little at that and my eyes widen.

" Why do you think I wouldn't understand that? " I ask sad.

" I just don't think you see me as the type to do that " He shrugs. " Doesn't matter really not like I'm going to get the balls to do that "

" Jon that does fucking matter. You have a fucking gun in case you ever wanna just fucking end it all. Your just going to leave me and Joe like that. How do you think that would make us feel if you did that? We'd be fucking miserable Jon. I can't live without you Jon you're my best fucking friend. "

" You'd be fine "

" No, no I wouldn't. Hell you and Joe are my only fucking friends. You're my brothers. If anything happened to anyone of you I'd be devastated. Especially if you were to go down by suicide. I don't know if in the morning I'm going to walk in here to ask you what you want for breakfast and see a bullet hole in your brain. What would you do Jon if I took that gun and shot myself tonight? What would you do? "

" I'd shoot myself "

" Exactly. So if you were to take that gun and shoot yourself I would too. Then you know Joe would. We can't live without you man. We love you. " I didn't even know he was crying until he wiped his eyes. " I just don't wanna see you go down the path I almost did. Hell you actually did go down that path. I don't want you to try and do it again " He hugs me and I hug back.

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I walk back in my room I think is also Joe's room now too because he been sleeping in here with me. He was awake staring at the ceiling. I crawl in the bed beside him. " What's wrong? " I ask him.

" Nothing. Why? " I shrug. " Dunno you was just staring off into space " He smiles and shrugs.

" So is this like your room too now or? " He shrugs and rolls onto his side so he can look at me. " Shrugging doesn't answer ya know? "

" It's how I answer when I'm tired " I chuckle. " Well go to sleep then dummy "

" You go to sleep dummy "

" I will dummy "

He laughs and cuddles up against me. " I'm so putting some fucking glo in the dark stars on the ceiling " He laughs.

" Go to fucking sleep Colbs oh my god " he shakes his head and we laugh and go to sleep.

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