I havent been able to handle not having you here.....Spending our 1 month alone hurt....it hurt me the most.....I Know that nobody understands how I feel about this...I Wanted to cry cause your not here...and that's what I wanted this most is to spend our 1 Month Of Dating Together....and for you to be the first person I spend every holiday with but your gone often,and as I write this you've been gone for awhile but with a reason i understand....I Hope that you come back with even more time to spend with me then before,but I dont think that would be possible cause your busy and of course I understand that also....But I'm Super Upset and Sad and Worried When your not Here and when I dont understand what's going on it all turns into stress and my mental and Physical Health going down which causes Me to have a Breakdown and it causes me to not function well as a person.....Everything Is Alot Worse Without you even My Bipolar Disorder Is Alot Worse Without you....I dont think you know But Your The First Person to Ever Ask me Why I was Frustrated....And the first person Who said they would never cheat on me and meant it and who I believe wouldnt Cheat on me (even tho apart of me thinks you would because that's the part of me that doesnt feel worth it), and you wouldnt ever put your hands on me or hurt me or make me feel afraid in away,the kind of love you give me has always Been the Kind of Love I've searched so long and hard for......the kind of Love where it takes away My Pain And Heals Everything in away and I miss it when it's not here....Like Right Now....I'm Missing it and Im Crying Writing This cause I miss it so much.....
I hope you can understand how much your health,your well being,and how even your emotions and feelings mean to me
And I hope you can understand how much YOU mean to me....
12/3/18
