P S Y C H O •zuckles•

.8

⚠️gets really serious this chapter⚠️

Cameron's POV
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She's been in her room all day and I've heard nothing. The guys have been telling me to give her time but I grew worried. What if she hurt herself? What if she needs help?

I have been standing in front of her door for an hour now and I haven't gathered the courage to knock on her door. I never meant to hurt her... She deserves the world and more and I'm the last person that should upset her. I should be making her smile and laugh.

Not cry...

I knocked on the door and heard nothing. I waited a bit before knocking again. The worry in my stomach grew more and more. Placing my hand on the knob I jiggled the handle before realizing it had been locked.

That's when I started to panic.

Slamming my body against the door I tried breaking it down. Before I knew it the door broke open and her room was dark and her balcony door was open as cool wind misted in. I turned on her light to get a better look around the room and she was no where to be found. Not even in the bathroom.

On her bed was a lined sheet of paper that looks like it had been placed for me.

Cameron,

You're probably wondering where I am. Honestly I don't even know that myself right now. My mind has been everywhere lately and I needed an escape... Just to breathe... Mason has gladly offered to take me away for a bit and I think that's what I need. To be away from everything. I know you have been there almost my entire life since my dad passed but I need a break from you. I'll be honest and say I've liked you for the longest time and it still has not passed. But you only think of me as a sister and on my part that's wrong. I have to some how dismiss these feelings so we can continue our friendship. I love you Cameron not only as a friend but I think something more. I want to thank you for being there for me. I'll be back as soon as possible. Text if you need me and I'll respond when I can xx

-Phoenix ♡

I gripped the paper slightly.

She's going with him again? I felt anger rise up in me, then I remembered what she wrote.

'I've liked you for the longest time'

If only you knew Pheonix...

I liked you as well....

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Pheonix POV
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Mason rented us a hotel about an hour from the apartment. It had a double bed and a balcony. I haven't been in a hotel since my dad died and we had to rent a hotel till my mother could afford an apartment.

I was sitting on the white sheeted bed staring at my phone, hoping at least one text from Cam but it seemed like he didn't care. Sighing I placed my phone on the bedside table and plugged it in.

Mason came out of the bathroom drying his hair with a towel while just wearing some joggers.

"Bathroom is all yours mistress" he says and I nod thanking him.

I go inside the bathroom seeing it had a separate bathtub and shower with a double sink in the middle. I pull my shirt over my head and slip my pants off. I looked into the huge mirror planted above the sinks. The mirror was too big for my liking, I could see my whole self and everything wrong with me.

I folded my arms together feeling tears forming and slowing falling down my cheeks. I sniffled clenching my sides a bit.

How pathetic... Standing in the middle of a hotel bathroom in your underwear crying over your useless self.

The door swung open, my eyes instantly met with Mason's worried ones.

"Oh shit I'm so sorry I heard you crying and I-" his face was red from embarrassment but his eyes directed towards my legs. I felt even more uncomfortable I couldn't help it I started to cry more. "No... No Phoenix I'm sorry I didn't mean too." He walks over and hugs me. His body towered over mine but he hunched over a bit to comfort me.

I instantly sobbed into his bare chest. I didn't care if I was half naked or a mess, I needed this... I've never had this. He picks me up and sets me on the padded bench in the corner of the bathroom. He then turns on the water and squirts in a bunch of the hotels shampoo making bubbles. Standing up properly, he gestured for me to go inside the tub.

I didn't want to undress in front of him completely, it was bad enough he seen this much.

"Oh right" he turns around and covers his eyes. I smile a bit before taking my bra and underwear off then slipping into the mixture of water and bubbles. The bubbles covered my body well so I let Mason know he could turn around.

He then sits next to the bathtub leaning on his hands.

"You don't have to.." I shyly say moving my hands around in the hot water. "I wanted too... I care about you and it's the least I can do since you helped me out" he shrugs.

We were sitting in silence. It was nice but I still felt like crying. It's almost the feeling you always get where you start crying and you just have to let it all out for some reason.

"How long?" He broke the silence making me look at him "hmm?" I raised an eyebrow at him and he sighs "how long since you last hurt yourself" he almost choked out.

I gripped my legs clutching them to my chest more. Do I tell him? Why should I? He'd make fun of me. He'd think differently of me.

Suddenly I felt his thumb swipe across my cheek "no need for crying it's okay Phoenix" he says. I didn't even realize I was crying. "About a month ago" I finally replied to his question and he sighs.

He's disappointed in me.

"Promise me you won't hurt yourself anymore? You're too beautiful to be hurt..." He took my hand into his pressing it up against his lips. I blushed a bit, I really didn't say anything to his request but he also didn't drag on about it either.

Maybe he thought I just agreed with him. Nonetheless I had to get out.

He had his eyes closed handing me a warm towel. I dried off and went out to my bag grabbing a tanktop and some pj bottoms that say "ho ho ho" on the bottom. I laid down in my bed but Mason join me.

"Why not sleep in your own bed" I said, not that I cared at all just I thought he'd want privacy or his own comfort. "Nah sleeping with you had been giving me the best sleep I've had in a long time" he curls next to me and closes his eyes. I do the same feeling his arms wrap around my waist  and I snuggle to his body warms and slowly doze off.