P S Y C H O •zuckles•

2.8

-lmao ⚠️spicy scene at end⚠️-

It got so FUCKING cold last night that Mason and I clung to each other like koala bears. After hours of not being able to sleep I just got out of the tent and decided to make a fire from last nights hot coals for everyone to warm up around.

I heard an unzipping, looking up I see swagger exit his tent and zip it back up "I have no clue how Cameron is sleeping through this cold ass weather" he says and you could see his breathe in the air "I know Masons passed out too" I giggled as I lit up the fire starters and set some logs onto it. "Hey uh Cam told me bout last night..." He said and my cheeks flushed "don't worry i'm not judging you did the right thing telling him the truth, he's just scared he fucked up your guys friendship like he cried over it" He shook his head and chuckled standing in front of the fire.

"No I just didn't expect him to, you know, kiss me" I said joining him next to the fire "yeah I get that" he grabbed a chair for me and him and placed it near the fire.

It had to be 6 in the morning, the mist from the river and the rising of the sun kind of gave it a dead give away.

Swagger got up and held his hand out to me "would the fair lady like to go with me and get coffee for these peasants?" I laughed and took his hand "it would be my pleasure!" He had the keys in his coat pocket and we got into the car. He started it and started to drive back to the entrance.  "Hows things going with Mason?" he was tapping his fingers on the wheel and I shrug "good, i'm trying to trust him again.. you know a good ole second chance" I say as I look out the window seeing the dead-ish trees rush past.

"Yeah I don't think you have to worry about him cheating again" he pulls into the starbucks and I look at him "whys that?" I asked but he pulled into the drive thru and asked me what coffee I like.

We drove back and he never did answer my question.

Looks like everyone was awake by the time we got back, "we got coffee!" I say handing everyone the coffee that Swagger got for them. "Thanks guys" Toby took a long sip of his drink. I stood next to Mason who had his arm around me, I made eye contact with Cameron. He looked almost hurt but I just kindly smiled at him to reassure everything was fine. He gave one back to me and thats when Masons grip got a little tighter.

I look up at him and he just smiled "are you warming up?" he asked and I nodded.

We packed up kind of slow but tried to make it a quick process.

Once packed we hit the road, Toby, Jay, Matt, Sam, and Ryan went back to their hotel while we went back to my apartment. Cam, Swagger, and Mason helped me unpack and get everything squared away. The entire time Cam was helping me unpack I felt Masons eye on the back of my neck. Once Swagger and Cam left to the hotel Mason wrapped his arms around my waist from behind and burrowed his face in the crook of my neck.

"Well hello stalker" I giggle patting his cheek "I don't like when Cams near you" he says under his breathe "Why not?" I turn to face him and his arms still stuck around me like glue "I heard what happened last night" he mumbled and my heart dropped a little bit "Ma-Mason I.." - ".. I know it wasn't your fault, its okay really plus I know you don't like him that way. You still have feelings for me" he smiles and his hands grip my hips.

I felt relieved he understood...

His hands went from my hips to my neck and he pulled me in for a kiss. I held his wrists gently melting into his kiss.

He was right I completely have feelings for him, I have fallen for him when I shouldn't of, I should've kept him away and broke it off completely but look at me... completely submitting myself into the hands of a cheater.

He pulls away and shakes his head "No.. No.. I can't" His breathe was a little shakey and his hands slowly fell from my face then held my hands gently "you can't what?" I felt almost upset when he pulled away "i'm going to get carried away, you're so.." he stopped and just leaned forward and rested his head onto my shoulder as he played with my finger tips "so...? what?" I just waited looking at the ceiling for an answer "irresistible" he muttered and I smiled a bit as I felt myself blush.

this is a mistake

step back

dont do it

a mistake a mistake a mistake a mistake

dont say it

its a trap

youll get hurt

dont trust it

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I shook my head a bit to stop the thoughts and pulled my hands back from his and gripped his shirt a bit "Mason.." He straightens up and looks at me, once we made eye contact I got nervous and started blushing wildly. I look down at my hands that is holding onto his shirt, oh so gently, I looked back up at him in the eyes "please kiss me more" I said softly and he pulled his bottom lip in between his teeth and sighed heavily "holy shit.." he growled as he picked me up and pressed me against the wall.

He started to kiss me but this time it was different but it wasn't bad... not at all. What was this? This is something i've ever experienced before.

What are you doing

you're going to fuck it up

hes going to fuck it up

too much trust

too much closure

stop him

you stupid bitch

I got pulled from my thoughts when he shifted a bit and used one hand to hold my bum and the other to place on my neck to tilt my head up a bit, he transferred his lips from mine to my neck and thats when my breath started to get shakey as well.

The neck, the kissing, his hand.

Everything was so... exciting.

He was mumbling something against my neck but I couldn't understand it, my mind was fuzzy and my body felt numb.

stop it

please keep going

its too much

it feels so good

its so uncomfortable

what is he doing

do i want this?

of course you dont!

you've always wanted this

My thoughts were so clustered but I started to ignore them once his hand grip got tighter around my neck, not enough to kill me just enough to make me feel like i'm on cloud nine.