P S Y C H O •zuckles•

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(Long chapter beware)
Mason had Cameron and I go out to get a dress while he made preparations for the date he was planning for us tonight. He said...

"Oi cunts! Go out and get a stupid dress not too fancy but fancy got it?"

Which we didn't get it but he pushed us out the door too soon to even explain so now we are stuck with the hints of "stupid dress" and "not too fancy but fancy" even Cameron doesn't know what the date is so he can't even say what dress would be perfect.

We went to the mall, still confused on what we're getting.

"Hey..." Cameron says behind me holding all the dresses in his arms that I have picked out to try "...doesn't this remind you of when we were back in high school picking out outfits to match each other?" He says and I giggle.

Cameron and I always went together to the school dances, as friends of course, and we would always go to his house afterwards to get blasted out of our minds while watching breaking bad.

"Yeah. I remember everyone thought we were dating and we would laugh at them" I smiled picking out another dress handing it to Cameron. "Yeah..." He sighs and I look at him "are the dresses getting to be too much? We can go try them out now to get rid of some options" I was worried I was putting too much on his plate. My anxiety of course.

He shakes his head "no no you're fine I've carried heavier stuff than this remember?" I just nod and continue to look at dresses "then what's wrong?" I asked looking at a green dress that almost made me gag.

"Phoenix..." He starts off but a worker comes over and smiles "would you or your boyfriend need any help?" He smiles at us and I shake my head "we aren't dating but thanks though! I'll let you know if we do!" I smiled back at him and his face got red but he still smiled and nodded at us walking away. "You were saying?" I continued to look at dresses and Cameron shrugs "let's try on these dresses I wanna see if any of them look good" I know he avoided my question but I'll ask him later.

We head toward the dressing room and he plops the dresses down on the bench in one of the rooms then heads out leaving me in there alone. I shut the door and beginning to try on the dresses.

One by one I felt my self esteem go down and my anxiety go up. I always hated trying on dresses. I didn't like how any of them looked.

How did I possibly pick out a dress back in high school... I can't even do it now.

I sit on the floor in my bra and underwear hugging my knees to my chest placing my head in them. There was a knock on the door then it opened, I started to panic till I realize it was Cameron. He looked down at me and sighed.

He quickly enters the dressing room and closes the door behind him locking it. "Come here" he says helping me up into the bench. He then squats down and looks at me.

"What's wrong?" He says and that's all it took, I broke.... I started crying and he instantly hugged me rubbing my arms creating some goosebumps. He calmed me down and once I finally was able to breathe he asked me again "what's wrong?" He said with a low tone so no one could hear he was in here with me "I don't know Cam. I don't like how I look I any of these dresses and I just wanna go back..." I whimper trying not to cry again "Phoenix... you're so beautiful you don't understand I've always loved you in every dress you wore in high school and I'll still love every dress you wear later on. Phoenix I do like you... no I love you with all my heart and it's not just as a friend or sister. I've always liked you but I loved our friendship better and I never wanted to ruin that." I felt my heart race as he said that.

He likes me?

Oh god....

Not now hormones and emotions..