Kill Him|Lee Felix|Stray Kids Fanfic

Giving up

FELIX POV

Tonight is the night, I'm engaged to the woman I don't love...

"What do you think it's suitable for me felix?" She asked and showed me A red and black colored dresses

"Wear whatever you think it's suitable for you." I said and Walked away in the room

"I thought you love me..."

I still remember the day I decided to hurt her, to push her away, the day I saw her tears falling from her eyes.

I wanted to say I still love you and I'm sorry... But even though I'll say those words, nothing will change. I hurt her and if she loves another man like shiro or other man as long as she's happy, maybe I'll be okay... Maybe...

O wasn't paying attention where I was going or anything around me, I bumped into someone and when I looked to that person I think my world got completely insane....

Momo....

"Ohh I'm sorry-..." She didn't finished her sentence when she looked at me

"Ohh, it's fine." I didn't show any expression at all...

"Uhmm, by the way congratulations on your engagement. The party looks so elegant." She said and smiled

I missed how you smiled at me...

"Yeah, it is."

"Momo!" Shiro called her name

"Ohh shiro is calling me, excuse me I better go." She walked away but she stopped for a minute and looked at me. "It's nice to see you again..... Mr. Lee" she said and walked to shiro

I felt something stabbing in my chest, like a million knives where stabbing my heart until it breaks into peices...

Mr. Lee? You used to call me love or Felix.... What happen to those?

I didn't take my eyes off her but when I saw her holding his hand and smiling at him like she used to smile at me I felt a new unbearable pain in my chest.

Don't hold his hand Momo! Don't smile at him like that, don't talk to him like you use to talk to me! Momo look at me! Please! Come back to me... I'm sorry....

"They look so good together, aren't they? I bet they make a great couple." Kathleen said

Great couple? I don't think so...

"You think? They don't look so good." I said and grabbed her hand and walked away

I can't bear to see them together...but I can't help it, he's with her and I can't stand it.

I saw them run outside.

"Momo I have to tell you something." what... What is happening?

"What is it shiro?" she asked

"I... I love you momo and I can't bear to see you hurting because of him and I want to take you away from him, would you please give me a chance?"

What...? He... He loves momo?  Please say no momo, please wait for me. I'll fix this mess.... Just please.... Wait for me...

"It's worth to try, so why not?"

I immediately run towards them and they both look shock.

"I knew it! You guys were dating! We should have double dates together!" Kathleen said wrapped her arms around me

"uhmm... Excuse me." she said and start running away.

I was about to run after her but kathleen stopped me

"No felix, I'm your fiancé."

"Stop hurting her Felix! Can't you see she's trying to forget everyone because of you! She wanted to sleep forever and let her inner self take over her body?! Would you want that!? Huh felix!?" Shiro shouted at me

Can't they see I'm also in pain? Can't they see I'm still madly inlove with her?

"Do you think I don't love her? Fuck I'm still inlove with her! So please, let me go.... I promise I'll.... I will come back to you." I said and she loosen her grip on my hand...

I immediately run after her and held her hand.

"Felix let me go." She's trying to get away from my grip but i didn't let her.

Momo, please don't leave...please... Wait for me.

"Let me go Felix! If you feel pity on me then stop it! I don't want it felix!" her voice sounds like she's in pain.

I want to say I love you Momo, please don't leave... Don't leave like dad did... Please...

Why cant these words cant come out of my mouth?!

"Let me go felix, go to your fiancé. Love her like the way you use to love me.. Or I'm the one who's loving... Be happy felix don't let her cry and please... Don't ever hurt her." I didn't knew I was loosing my grip on her hand

She got out of my grip and ran away....

I looked at her right there's a car running speed towards her...

My world got completely shattered....

"MOMO!!!" I can't move...

"Momo, wake up please. Open your eyes, please." Shiro picked her up and called an ambulance

"Fuck felix are you just gonna stand there?!" he shouted at me

I don't want to believe it... She's not momo...

I snapped back to myself when the ambulance came I held her hand so tight....

"Momo, open your eyes please... I'm sorry... Please not now..." I kissed her knuckle while holding her hand so tight

After 5 minutes or so we arrived at the hospital.

"I'm sorry sir but you cant be inside."

"What!? But she's my-..." I didn't finished my sentence

"I'm sorry sir but this is the hospital protocol." He said and closed the door...

This is all my fault... I can't help but to punch the wall beside me.

"Felix, calm down. She'll be alright, she's strong." shiro tried to calm me down

"But... It's all my fault shiro, if I didn't run after her this wouldn't be happening..."

"Even though I wanted to punch you like I wanted to kill you, but I cant cause if I do that momo will be upset. So shut the crap out and calm down felix she'll be alright." he said and my strength left my body and sat down on the floor and cried..

I'm sorry momo, I'm so sorry....