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Demi's POV

I'm really happy to finally be getting to spend some time with Addy again, I hope I can get her to talk to me more about the things that are troubling her.
I look over at Addy and notice her leg has not stopped shaking since we were in class earlier.
Why is she so jittery?
Is her anxiety acting up?
What is going on with her?
She seems very off..
Like, she's here, but she's not. Understand?
Like it's a shell of her. And not actually her.
Someone just going through the motions of daily life, like a puppeteer. Forcing her through the actions, but she's not there, it's vacant.
Hopefully I can get her to talk to me. That's exactly why I told her to leave her car and that I'd drive her home. That way she can't just get up and run away from me because she wants to avoid the topic. I'm worried sick about her. I need her to let me in and let me help her.
I just know I can.

I pull into my driveway, Addy nervously bitting her nails as she scratches at her arm a bit. I unlock the front door, and we quickly make our way inside, turning to lock the door before turning back. I see Addy nervously looking around my living room.
"I've really gotta use the bathroom, I'll be right back okay?" She states as she turns to walk towards the bathroom
She hadn't eaten anything, so I'm sure she actually has to use the bathroom this time.
I take off my heels and start to undress, putting on some sweats and a t shirt. I fold my clothes and set it on the coffee table. I throw myself onto the couch and turn Netflix on, putting on a comedy special. As it's about to start I turn around to see Addy walking towards the couch. Her eyes are wide and dark. And her hands are shaky. Looks like she's just seen a ghost.

"Are you okay love? Do you feel okay?"
She looks up from the ground and her tired eyes meet mine, her right hand gripping onto her left arm.
"I'm okay, I didn't get much sleep last night... so I'm just tired" she flashes the fakest smile I've ever seen and sits next to me on the couch
"Why couldn't you sleep love?"
She stares at the wall, I notice that with the nail on her pointer finger she is pulling back the skin around her thumbs fingernail harshly.
I grab her hand and kiss it softly, causing her to look up at me with a confused look on her face
"There's no need to hurt yourself, you're here with me, you're safe here. Remember that.
Now, tell me why you couldn't sleep?"
"I just couldn't.. idk.. I had a lot of energy from.."
She bites her tongue, quickly stopping herself from continuing, my eyebrows furrow as I squint my eyes. What was she about to say? I'm confused
"Lots of energy from what?"
She looks everywhere but at me
"I had an energy drink last night, I don't know why I drank it so late, but I did, and it gave me lots of energy haha" she laughs softly and I smile at that amazing sound

"So what all did you do yesterday.. you know.. after you left?"
She yet again looks away from me
"I told you last night when you called, I just relaxed, took a bath, played with the pups, listening to music, and drank an energy drink that kept me up all night" she smiles, yet again, the same fake and dead smile from before
I place my finger under her chin, forcing her to look at me, I'm so done with this beating around the bush bs, I NEED her to talk to me so I can fucking help her.

"Addy, I'm going to ask this one last time.
What. Did. You. Do. After. You. Left."
She pushes my hand away and gets up from the couch, I reach up and grab her wrist
"Talk to me Adelaide, god damnit, I'm here for you! Just talk to me!"
She looks at me, her eyes full of fear, and broken. Fuck. Maybe I shouldn't of yelled at her.
"I...I need to go home..." she walks away grabbing her phone but I quickly come up behind her, pressing her against the wall, leaning in and softly kissing her lips
"You're not walking away from me again Addy. I won't fucking allow you to walk away. You're staying. And you're going to talk to me. And that's final" she pushes me away from her and a tear rolls down her cheek
"I don't want to talk. I just want to fucking go home and be alone!" She shouts at me
"No! You're not going to keep running away from me! I CARE ABOUT YOU DAMNIT, LET ME IN" I reach for her and pull her into my arms, walking with her in my arms up my stairs and to my bedroom, carefully setting her on my bed as I crawl in besides her, pulling her closely against my body, her tiny, shaking frame collapsing in my arms
I let out a deep breath that I didn't realize I was holding in as I pull her closer against me, placing my finger under her chin so she looks up at me
"Talk to me baby..? Please..?" I whisper
She sits up on the bed and turns away from me, acting as if I don't even exist, I can see her nervously itching at her arm
I know what will calm her down.
But I don't know if I should do it.
I turn to her and she's made her thumb bleed from pulling the skin back so hard and far.
Fuck it. I'm gonna do it.
"Hey honey, hold on, I'm gonna go grab you some water so you can relax okay?"
She softly nods at me and I get up from my bed and head downstairs, I look back to make sure she hasn't followed me as I reach into my cabinet and pull out some strong ass sleeping pills I was prescribed, I quickly crush two up and put them in a glass, then pour water on top of them, taking my finger and mixing them in.
There, looks like just water.
I walk back upstairs with the glass in my hand and walk into my room. I look around for Addy but she's not there. Fuck.

I hear crying coming from the bathroom as I go to turn the knob, great it's locked.
"Honey, come on out, what are you doing?"
I can hear her sniffle then I hear her scurry around the bathroom. Finally she opens the bathroom door and I look at her, her eyes are wide and dark again.
"What were you doing in there love..?"
"I just had to use the bathroom." She states rolling her eyes
"I didn't hear the bathroom flush" I quickly reply and she looks at the ground
"Can I not have any private time to myself?" She spits at me, causing me to be taken back at her attitude. Oh Addy, you're in for a hell of a punishment once you feel better.
"Here, I brought you some cold water" I smile at her, as she takes the glass and quickly downs it.
"Come on, lets lay down and cuddle" I grab her arm as I set the glass down and pull her towards the bed, laying her down with me crawling in besides her, pulling her close to me
"I need.. to put some pjs on.." she mumbles as her eyes start rolling back into her head, she's quickly feeling the pills. Great. She'll finally get some much needed rest. And we don't have class tomorrow, so she can sleep as long as she needs.
"I'll put some pjs on for you, don't worry baby" I whisper to her, but she's already out like a light
"Addy? Can you hear me?" I say louder as I shake her a bit, nope. She is out. Good.
I get up from the bed and walk over to my closet, pulling out some shorts and an oversized t shirt. I make my way back to her and she hasn't moved an inch. I smile down at her, she looks so peaceful and beautiful. My god, so beautiful. I sit her body up straight as I slide off her long sleeve shirt, I look down at her and gasp as tears flood my eyes, her body covered in slashes, there's not one area that saved itself from her blade. I wipe my tears as I slide off her yoga pants and step back to examine her body further. The tears won't stop as I see her legs are also covered in deep wounds, I lay her down on her side so I can try to catch my breath and calm myself down.
I sit behind her, my face buried in my arms, I look up and notice that her back is covered with old deep wounds, but.. how did she hurt herself on her back? No.. this wasn't her own doing.. they look like whip marks, and some wounds that look like cigarette burns. I sob louder as I trace my fingertips down the long gashes. 15 minutes later I finally calm down enough to continue. I gently sit her up again and slide the shorts on her fragile broken body, and then the oversized t shirt as well, I lay her down and place her comfortably as I grab her yoga pants and long sleeve shirt. I fold her shirt and set it down on the counter, then pick up the yoga pants and start to fold them when something falls out of the pocket.

I look down at the ground and stare at the circular pill. What the fuck is this?
I dig through her pockets and find like 20 more pills and three empty baggies. I stare at the items confused. What was in these bags?
And why does she need all of these pills?
What are they?

'Take one to find out what they are Demi'

'Just one'

The thoughts come crawling into my brain but I quickly shake them out, grabbing the pills and putting them back into her pocket, along with the empty bags. Maybe she needs them. Maybe they're her anxiety meds and she just carries them around like this for quick access in case she has a panic attack.
Maybe....
Maybe not...

I quickly shake the feelings I'm getting and throw on some pjs, laying down beside Addy and pulling her closely against me.

Tomorrow we will have a very serious conversation.
She would tell me if she was using...
Wouldn't she...?

Oh no, cliffhanger 😩
What do you think is going to happen?
Will Addy open up to Demi?
Will Demi help Addy?
Or will Demi pull away from Addy to keep her sobriety intact?
What's going to happen when Demi can no longer hold in her Dominant side?
Will Addy run?
What do you wanna see happen?
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