The Pain Behind the truth

Catching A Case

Once graduation happened I was so happy. I was getting ready to start planning my wedding. But as soon as I thought things was getting better Jay came in the room and said he have to turn his self in. I put my head in my hands and start to cry Jay came and grabbed hand and told me to claim done he not gone be gone forever. I looked up at him and said "WHY!? "Why propose to me???". He said because I love you and then he kissed me softly. We felt back onto the bed and last night was the first time we made love to each other.
The Next day: Tuesday 9:30am
I woke up to find jay laying  next to me I got up to make him breakfast. While I was cooking I felt him come behind me and hold my waist. I loved it when he did that. When breakfast was done I but his plate on the table and made him some orange juice. Seat down at the table and told him good morning. Jay didn't speak much that morning I can tell he was worried about the court stuff. We finished his food fast and we got up to get ready we stopped by his moms house and picked her up on the way to the court house he said I did everything to keep y'all straight while I'm gone and I want y'all to stay straight and tight for me. I wanted to cry but I couldn't I have to be strong and support him while he go lay down and do his time. When the courts finally called his name I being to have A panic attack he grabbed me and said that everything was going to be fine. The judge told him his sentencing. I broke down crying. I kissed and hugged him good bye. I told his mom let's go and we head for the car. The whole way to her house no words were shared. Once we arrived she got out and close the door. Once I got home I sat by my phone all day and waited anciently for Jay to call.I became so impatient to the point I want to go take a shower to keep my mind off of the phone call. As soon as I got out the shower I hear my phone ring I ran as fast as I can. When I answered the phone :
Jay said " hey baby how are you ??"
" good and you ??"
" i'm holding in there"
" jay I'm so ready for you to come home !!"
" baby be strong I only have 3 months that's 90 days"
" Jay I wanted  to tell you this before you went in I'm pregnant"
" YOUR WHAT ???"
" I'm pregnant!!" 
That's when I heard the phone hang up I wanted to cry. All I could think is Jay doesn't want the baby.
Days after telling Jay I was pregnant every time he called that's all he would talk about. It would be either " Is the baby getting bigger." Or " How is the baby doing??" Like his whole time being locked up all he talked about was the baby when his 3 months we're up I was so happy he was Finally going to be  with me and the baby. When I went to go pick him up. He gave me a kiss and a hug. Then he got on one knee and promised to never leave me or the baby again he kissed my stomach and kissed me again.
At that moment I didn't care with Jay did or what he was in jail for.