ʀᴀɴᴅʏ ᴏɴᴇ sʜᴏᴛs ✨

Shes gone

I am not sure if people get triggered by death but if you do there will be death involved in this soo click of now
Ryes pov

I was laying on the couch underneath my bed cuddling my beautiful boyfriend, a steaming hot cut of tea in one hand and the distant sounds of Netflix playing Sherlock Holmes .

It was a peaceful night nothing to exciting happened toady other than the daily smashed objects in the kitchen and brook being his werid self everyone loves , it was the perfect day , well that's what I thought .

Andy was sleeping quietly small snores escaping his lips , I stared at his beauty until my phone started ringing.

I gently lifted andys arms of my waist and moved his sleeping head of my chest as I darted to my phone .

I picked it up

"H-hey son" I hear my dad speak out yet his voice was trembling and it sounded as if he was crying.
"Hey dad , what's wrong?" I rush out
"T-here's something-g I need to tel-l you-u" he stuttered out he sounded as if he was holding back sobs
"You can tell me anything " I say to him in a reassuring tone
"Your m-mum she-es gone rye! S-she was in the h-hospital and-d they said her-r heart s-stopped I am s-s......"

I stopped listening , my brain processing this new information.

I feel my phone slip from my hand hitting the floor with a bang , though it sounded distant the noisy world around me being replaced with he sound of ringing.

It felt as if someone had put the world into slow motion, time stopped as my heart broke the realisation hitting me in the heart like a bullet.

I stood frozen , my mind wanted to scream , run ,cry , be in andys arms but my body didn't move .

In my distant state , Andy was now awake had had picked up my phone no doubt hearing the news he put it back on the pile of clothes before wrapping his arms around my trembling body .

Pulling me back into the real world my hearing coming back , my eyes darted to the door I gently push andy off of me as I ran . I heard the distant cries of Andy begging me to come back but I couldn't I need to run .

I kept running. Feeling the crisp winter air snipping at the exposed skin , feeling it rush pass my face making my body feel numb.

I ran deeper and deeper into the dark forest if I wasn't on the edge of a mental break down right now I would be scared shitless .

I trip over my knees making contact with the wet leaves that were stuck to the ground , I place my forehead against the dirt squeezing my eyes shut , my hands beside my head taking In fist full of the crispy yellow and burnt orange leaves .

Whimpers and sobs escaping my mouth as I let the warm tears flow out my eyes .

I stand up again running up to a tree punching it multiple times not caring about the striking pain that ran through my fingers or the now wheezing wounds on my knuckles the fresh blood oozing out of the cuts .

I screamed and fell to the ground again curling in to a ball , knees pressed to my heavy chest , blood filled hands tugging at my hair , back pushed against the cold jagged bark of the tall oak trees that surrounded me , encasing me in privacy .

No ,no ,no this can't be happening! Why her?!why? You should have taken me . Her soul was to pure for this wicked world . She didn't deserve this

The warm salty liquid filling my eyes as I let it all out , like a cork being popped off the champagne bottle the foam spilling everywhere and you could not stop that

" oh baby" I hear who sounds like Andy say

Engulfing me in his warm embrace, his strong arms wrapped tightly around me , my head in the crook of his neck as I still sobbed .

"S-she's g-gone .......m-my m-um ....i-I-I " I try to explain what's going on but I can barely form a sentence with my constant sobs and Hiccups .

"Hey hey it's okay ryan I know you don't need to say anything, shhhhhhh" Andy whispers in a comforting tone

Rocking us back and forwards we stayed there for what felt like hours , filled of andys hushed words slipping in my ear trying to calm me down

Eventually my sobs quiet down alongs with the raging winds

" how about we go back home ? I'll clean ya up and you can get warm " andys says quietly I nod my head not trusting my voice

We make our way back to the house his hand firmly gripping on to mine as if he was afraid I was going to run again, the walk taking longer than I thought realising I had ran further than intended

Once we arrived back to the warmth of the house Andy dragged me past the question flying around from the boys and straight to his bathroom ,I silently thanked him not wanting to deal with all the concern off the boys

When we got to the bathroom andy placed me on the toilet seat while he scavenged for the medical supplies he needed

I sighed closing my eyes a certain lyric popping up in my head

For life they were dedicated, now that should be celebrated

The familiar tune running around my damaged mind , I smiled thinking of all the beautiful memories of my mother

Her sweet smile she would get when we were all sat at the stump of the fresh Christmas tree the sequels the twins would let out when they opened the gifts and Robbie would say how they sounded like piglets making everyone laugh ; or the time I first when to the dentists and I cried because I was scared he was going to rip all my teeth out and my mum told me that she'll protect me from all the scary people , she held my hand all though the appointment

And warm tear slipped pass my closed eyes

"This might hurt a bit baby" I hear andys worried voice say out loud in to the echoing room , I open my eyes to see Andy in his knees Infront of me with a pad in his hand , he pressed the dripping pad against my dried up wounds I hissed as I felt the shock of pain bounce around me body This continued until my knuckles were clean and banged

He pulled me up and placed me in his bed my back pressed against the soft sheets , he cuddled up to me

" she always here ryan even if you can't see her " he whispered I turn my head towards him he leaned in

His warm lips sending electrical shots through my body , making me feeling like I was drifting off on a cloud his lips moving in sync with mine

The kiss wasn't anything sexual just a pure reminder that we are there for each other . Forever and always

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Sorry this is really shit