Ask Me ..... How i know there's a God up in the heavens!

Chapter 52 - Trinity to Infinity and beyond

I took Jesus's hand as we walked along; swinging His arm back and forth like an overly energetic child playing with mom.

"Jesus." I mumbled my next inquiry. "Am I the only believer who's got this.... problem?"

"You mean, this: Come here Jesus, let me hug and kiss you..... problem?" He chuckled. "No, you not."

"You mean like, other people.... err... want  You so bad?" I cautiously peered over at Him.

"Yes. I meet this before." He answered.

"And it doesn't bother You?" I looked strait at Him this time.

"From those my Father give me; I understand this." He shrugged empathetically.

"Because this is part of the way we are designed?" I muttered in my own consternation.

"To a certain way of nature; yes." Jesus nodded. "But more also, if you cleave to me in Spirit; for the girl who wonder these things, is not a jump to want of the flesh too. Others in history find this in themselves. Is not that unusual."

I had to think about that one a minute, before the next (at least to me) seemingly 'logical' question arose.

"Ever had.... ehh, guys who have this problem?"

"That not of certain way of nature." Jesus corrected. "But men who struggle with sodomy? Yes, I meet this too. Men come from?" Jesus paused to think. "How is it this word you use; paradigm? A different archetype; different model." He held up a finger of contemplation.

"In this life, is impossible to be severed from gender." He went on to explain. "You be and think based on this and is not just expectation of society. Is as you say; biology. To desire helpmate of opposite gender is nature. To lust just for its own ends, as you call it; gay or strait, is something gone astray in mind and heart."

"Yeah, that's true." I offered a side observation. "There's a broad every which way that leads to destruction in this society."

"In this world!" Jesus corrected again.

I only paused and nodded.

"But what about You?" I posed my next question. "Do You find the same want... I seem to.... got?"

"In this general way; yes." Jesus answered as He glanced over at me. "But we make choices of the Father's will and direction He give us. If I pick the wife I really wish, I have my own Eve; but what of two sinless parents raise sinless children." Jesus started to laugh. "What challenge in that?"

"Well.... I guess that would be too easy; wouldn't it?" I snickered. "But what about me? Do You think I'm like.... kind of gross, or something?"

Jesus chuckled again. "If I pick next best wife? Give me one I bought; but yes, there still be too great of challenge in this."

"Yeah.... more for her than You." I gaffed under my breath. "Don't think I've ever encountered another Christian who'd ever confess to wanting to have sex with You."

Jesus only stopped, turned and looked at me; then burst out... laughing? His attempts to restrain what ever it was He found so.... endearingly whimsical?; left tears streaming down His face. I only peered suspiciously at Him; not sure if this was funny, sad, exciting, overwhelming or..... all of the above?  When Jesus finally got a hold of Himself; He sucked in a deep breath and stood and looked at me for a moment.

"Of glory the abandon I have love of my Father would be grand gift to share." He giggled and then sighed. "You right though; that be too complicated to work."