Addicted

Chapter 15

From: Harry

Briella. Talk to me.

I exhaled a big deep breath as I ignored Harry's text, placing my phone on the kitchen counter. It has been a week since the whole incident happened with Harry, I haven't talked to him ever since. Harry had been calling and texting me throughout the entire week. It has been very hard trying to ignore him. But what does he expect? I felt so stupid and angry. I was so sure I wanted to lose my virginity to Harry.

I feel like he only said that he didn't feel he was the right person and that he didn't feel like I was sure about it just as an excuse. Maybe he just wasn't as satisfied as I thought he was. Whatever. I got up from my seat and exited the kitchen, entering my bedroom. I decided I was going to take a warm shower. Maybe it would help me take my mind off things. I closed the door behind me as I began to take off my clothing. I removed my under garments. Before turning on the faucet, I paused and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror.

I looked at my bare naked body from head to toe. The thought of Harry looking at my body, quickly rushed to my brain. Knowing that my body wasn't good enough for Harry made me shake. The feeling of insecurity soon flowed throughout my entire body. I closed my eyes, not wanting to look. I turned around and found my way in the tub. I turned the shower faucet on. The warm water was soon falling from the shower head onto my cold body. I closed my eyes, relaxed. My mind went completely blank.

*

I put my hair into a high ponytail as I sat down on Talia's mattress.

"Come on, let's go walk or eat somewhere. Please." I urged. This is something that I needed. A Girl's Night Out. Something to take my mind off Harry.

Talia knew everything about Harry. Especially about that night. After Harry left, Talia came home ten minutes later. She found me crying in my room, then eventually everything just all spilled out.

"Are you sure you really want too?" She asked, unsure.

"Of course." I tried saying in a cheerful tone. I faked a smile.

"Okay, let me get my bag." she smiled.

*

"Hello my name is Lily and I'll be your server tonight. Is there anything you ladies would like to drink?"

"I'll have a cherry soda." Talia said.

"Water." I said glumly.

Lily nodded her head and left.

Talia and I had decided to go out and eat. We had been here for about ten minutes and I've been really silent.

"So.." Talia said. I could sense she felt awkward. Damn it. I needed to loosen up a bit. My jaw has tense. I loosened up my jaw a bit. I released a sigh.

"Look, I'm sorry for acting like this." I said, sadly.

She nodded her head and smiled.

"Don't worry, bri. It's fine, I understand." she smiled. I smiled back and shook my head, wanting to quickly change the subject.

"Hey so tell me, what happened with Tyler?" I asked, winking. Tyler had been the guy Talia was hooking up with that day I came home from work. I had met Tyler at Kassie's party.

She immediately began to blush.

"Well we're seeing eachother now." She smiled. I smiled in response.

"That's great. I'm happy for you, T." I said. And it was true, I was happy for Talia. She had every right to be happy. A sweet, kind, caring woman like her deserves to be happy.