After sitting in my closet in silence for a few minutes, I pluck the A string on my bass. Then the E. I then find myself playing some song I made up last week about depression.
"Don't know where to go, where to look. I'm trapped here in sheer terror. I look for the light, but all I see is darkness. I can't decide if I can keep looking, because I think I've missed my chance."
I'm strumming along to my made up song.
" I can't find you! My light! Now where are you?! Your gone!"
Im screaming now
" but have I found you?! It maybe! You may be standing, right in front of me!" I'm adding along now. The words pour out of my mouth.
" but your making me feel surrounded by the light! Do I want you? Do I want you? Do I want you? Do I want you?"
I drop my bass.
I'm laying on the ground. The tears come steaming out of my face like the words just did. "do I want you?"
Why am I this way?
Gumballs POV:
I'm running. Running away. Run up into the castle. I throw myself on my bed. The tears come rushing out of my eyes uncontrollably. I'm stronger than this. But sometimes you just need to cry. What am I going to do? Every time I go outside from now on will be awkward, everyone staring and whispering. He kissed marshall. What am I going to do? Why can't they just accept this? They won't listen to me! Or at least I don't think they will.
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Love me (gumlee)
FanfictionA gumlee fanfic. TRIGGER WARNING: contains self harm and suicidal thoughts/actions. Rated pg-13 Gumball has been in love with Marshall lee for a long time, but does he find out that Marshall may actually love him too? Marshall has been struggling w...
