Perfect SCARS

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I stayed up all night trying to convince myself that I only imagined what really happened.

It like watching hundred of ants crawl up my skin.... I felt dirty, filthy and indecent...

I blame myself for falling asleep on the couch whether I like it or not this would change everything. I stayed in my room all day too ashamed to even step out..by evening I was so hungry and tramped in my bloody tissues.

I tip toed out of my room and ran to the toilet.. We've ran out of toilet paper... Oh no.This is bad.. I took my bath without haste because I don't  have anything to wear... My clothes are wet and still in the bucket in the washroom... The one I was wearing yesterday is a mess. I don't have anything to wear...

I tied a towel and my intention was to hurry to the kitchen grab some food and head back to my room then I will think of something

As I was rushing out of the bathroom the main door suddenly flip open and out of shock I stupidly dropped the towel and I didn't even realize on time
That my towel had come off
He was staring at me like I was on fire by the time I notice I had nothing on I was in full panic

I screamed... Grabbed the towel from the floor , didn't even bother covering myself well and ran like hell to my room..

Once in my room I clicked the buckle shut sat on my butt and  I cried my eyes out.... 

I'm just getting out of a sticky situation infact am still in it and now I just complicated things...

I know what it is to be naked.. I know how i look when naked.... I know my body

I was seven years old when our neighbor back at kofi's house mummy junior told me to stop bathing outside.. She says I was growing fast and I wasn't like other seven year old. And also at the Foster home I was among the first of my set to be given bra tops because i began to show quickly

And even my menstruation kicked in early... I had rapid growth and now the man that was rubbing my thighs yesterday has just seen me naked.. Things just got even worst

More than ever I want to leave this place I no longer feel comfortable living in the same house as that man. i just want to go... Maybe the next time Miss Tris comes I can just tell her what is going on.. She's a lady too, she should understand me and help me out

I cried till I fell asleep...
I woke up to several body pain.... I felt so  weak and exhausted I didn't eat  any food all through yesterday and I have severe headache... .

Still in that horrible towel..  I'd rather wear my soaked clothes than this towel but I'm still too scared to step out of the room... And I'm so hungry

I couldn't even wait long... i opened my door slowly I peeped out to make sure he was not in sight.. Then I ran to washroom and couldn't find my clothes in a bucket. What is going on.. I checked everywhere and couldn't find it.... I could feel the tears coming with thunder... I could punch something or someone right now
Why is everything bad happening to me

I moved out of The washroom in rage and I rush to the living room. I looked at the scene where I had my episode last night and swallow my pain. This wouldn't have happened if he had just given me a room with toilet and bathroom inclusive.... Or did he intentionally put me in a room without bathroom so I can continually disgrace myself

Then in one corner.. I recognize my blue gown resting on a stool amidst other clothes. I hurried to it and all my clothes were well dried and  properly ironed and folded on the stool.... And by the side a dozen of sanitary pads rolls were placed beside my clothes

I was confused for couple of minutes because I could not understand how all this were put in place before I could request for them

Realizing am still in my towel, I quickly packed my clothes and stuff and hurried to my room.. Yesterday's  mistake must never repeat itself again

I am grateful for the kind gesture but I still dont want to live here.... I made myself a snappy meal and rushed to my room... I don't think I can forgive myself if he meets me here....

I stayed in my room and watched how the sun went down and darkness filled the atmosphere again

Another day has gone and I'm still here stucked in this beautiful hell hole.... Whatever happens from now on might just  be unfavorable