Perfect SCARS

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This place is too confined for the two of us
Sitting next to him makes me feel trapped and I hate this feeling

Even the comfort of this car makes it even more difficult for me
When I look out the window its almost like am in my own planet and nobody can see me

It would have been just fine.. If I was in here alone or with someone else but am with him
And every time i look at him I relive the mystery that overshadowed me

Even as years as passed back. It still remain fresh in my head.
The endless tears
The blood
The pain
The guilt

If I had manage to keep the anger under control, I think I can still manage to survive one drive next to him

"Are You feeling OK...... Genesis "

He cut between my thoughts and bring me back to reality.... My fears and weaknesses should be known to me and just me.  If I keep drifting away from the present. I will continue to give myself away

"Yeah am fine.... Am actually grateful to you.. If you hadn't shown up. I dont know what I would have done.. Out here on my own "

he just nod and focus on driving

"So what are you doing around here "

"Our depot is just around the area... I am returning home from there "

"Ohhh.... Is that so"

"I saw you from the other side of the road... Then when we made a U. Turn I had to make sure it was you before I pulled over "

"Wow "

"And then I heard you were around Epe from Simon and he was just trying to locate where you are since it Is just a straight drive from the major road to our office.... So I just knew it had to be you "

"ohhh I didn't know... No wonder he kept asking me where exactly I was... And because I didn't know anywhere. I couldn't tell him"

"That's true... I heard you are not from around here "

"Yes"

"So where did you come from "

"Los Angeles "

"You must be living fine over there, what brought you down here"

. that's a tricky question.... I'm actually here for you,  to ruin your life
But why is he asking me all this questions...

"Work.... "
I answered eventually.

"What do you do "

"Basically anything..  Am managing a business "..

"That's good.... So what are you into  "

"Are we still going far "

"No it's just by the next turning "

I sighed and look at the window..... I have to be ready to jump out of this car if I notice something unusual... I had my fingers on the locks..

"So... Do you want to call Simon and tell him about where you are... He seem pretty worried when I left "

"I will do that... As soon am settled "

"You don't have to worry we'll be home soon"

Home.....
My home is anywhere that You are not Philip

So no we are not going anywhere together

"Stop The Car!!! "
I panicked......

"What.. "

"Stop the car..... "
I started pushing the locks

"Genesis... What's wrong "

"I said stop the car right now "

"Okay... " he pulled over
"What's wrong with you.... "
I didn't answer I just unlock the car and hop down

I took several deep breaths and Before I could think... He had hop down too and was walking towards me

I had to walk away from him because I needed space and now he's here again...
God I have tried so hard to keep it together but the more I try.... The harder it gets...... To breath.

"Genesis what's going on... Talk to me "

"Am fine... ". I turned away from him before he could see my blood shot eyes ready to pour tears

"I don't understand what is going on"

"Am sorry.. I just need a moment pls "

"A moment for what "

"To catch my breath "

He sighed and said

"Okay...  "

Then he head back to the car

I can't let him see me like this
I was just a few urge away from yelling at him and giving him some hard pounces to his face

Years of boxing classes have been for this sole purpose
To tear apart the man who literally torn mine apart

I know it alot to control but the best part of all this.. Is to be able to make my own rules.. If I can control My emotions. I can Succeed at this

after doing more breathing exercise and making sure that my nerves are calm.. I returned back into the car and nod for him to keep driving, he didnt ask any question... He just focused on driving and just at the next turning we took a turn and the estate was familiar again.

When we got to the gate.... He used the remote control to open the gate and drove in

"I'm really sorry about what happened on the road... "

What happened on the road..... Was just a reaction

"So You are feeling better now... "

"I am thanks to you "

That's another lie from the pit of hell

"Let's go inside... "

"Do You mind if I leave my stuff in the car.... I dont want to look... "

I dont want to look homeless especially not in front of Juliet

"It's OK I understand "

We went in together and Juliet joined us in the living room

"Genesis... What a pleasant surprise "

"I know right"

She hugged me and turn to hug her husband though he slidelined her but she was quick to recover from his neglect and turn to me again

"I met Genesis on the way.. ... Her car broke down and I have called the mechanic to toll it to the workshop. She wanted to spend the night at an hotel but I insisted she come home instead "

Wow.... That's the most rigid explanation have ever heard

"That's very nice of you my love..... Genesis is like family and she's always welcome here "

He raised his brow, turn towards me... I smiled faintly murmuring thank you  ... He smiled back and head towards the stairs

"Come let's get you settled in a room "
Julie held my arm and lead me to one of their guests room "