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My Mind Takes A Sharp Turn- Virgil

"I'm astounded and nonplussed. I am filled with calcu-lust."

Our conversation remained fairly light and breezy as we made our way to the lunchroom. Remus had spurred me on to ask Roman to have lunch with us. He hadn't horribly rejected me, so I couldn't consider the whole endeavor a failure.

We quickly found a table and set down our bags, and for the first time, I realized I had left Remus and Dee behind. I turned, but they were just there, pointing at me to turn back to Roman. We stood in line and he finally approached the elephant in the room.

"Um, thanks," he looked at me with an appraising smile I didn't quite understand. "For, uh, sticking up for me back there."

"Oh," I acted as I had hardly thought about it when it had practically consumed my every thought. "I guess we're friends now. I wasn't about to let him get away with that."

Thinking back, I have no idea what was going through my head when that happened. I just saw Roman's face. He looked scared. No one was allowed to make him feel like that. Not if I had a say in it. I had completely lost my usual composure and just proceeded to beat up this random guy.

I vaguely remember shrieking at him to stay away from Roman as Dee pulled me to my seat. As soon as my heartbeat slowed, I panicked. What did I just do? Roman may have liked me, but then I go and beat up some rando in front of him? That was seriously weird and creepy. I thought I ruined it. But here we were, eating lunch together.

We walked back over with our trays just as it seemed Patton and Remus had made some alliance. We all talked for a while, nothing very special. But I could feel my own gaze raking across Roman's body. What was wrong with me?

I couldn't help but notice him as we sat next to each other. How did I not notice this before? I had to manually control my eyes from moving down. I had thought Roman was cute, but it felt like I just noticed he was hot. God, it was so weird to even think about that.

I needed a distraction, so I reached into my backpack and pulled out my calculus homework. I could tell Dee was staring at me, trying to understand why I was suddenly intent on ignoring all of them. But I needed to find a way to make sure my mind wasn't on Roman and his killer body. Oh my God, I was completely hooked on him. Yeah, I was in love, but this didn't feel like love. This felt like I needed him, as much as I needed air to breathe.

I desperately started doing math problems, letting myself figure out factorials rather than my feelings. I had a weird feeling Roman was staring at me, trying to figure out if he had done something wrong again. I didn't want him to feel like I was mad, so I turned my body towards him. That was a bad idea. It was getting harder to concentrate by the second. I was stalling over one problem.

"Do you need some help?" he smiled at me. Yeah, but not with this.

"Um, yeah sorry, just... having a hard time focusing on... the problem." I looked back at him and softly bit the inside of my cheek. God, this was going to be impossible if he kept looking at me like that.

He leaned in closer and took my hand, guiding the pencil, pointing out what I should be doing.  My face was so red. I could hear his voice directly next to my ear, and I couldn't help but think he was definitely into this too. I was much more certain we had a mutual feeling for each other since he tried to kiss me.

"Is that better?" he had finished the problem but hadn't released my hand. I nodded. God, there was something definitely wrong with me.

"I have to go do something," I stood up before I did something I regretted. Roman looked a little crestfallen, which only made me want to be with him more. "I'll see you guys around." I took a few backward steps, grabbed my bag, and ran out, aware of how stupid I looked.

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"Dude, what were you doing? You seemed like a second away from kissing the idiot!" Jan came barrelling into the restroom with Remus coming in after him.

"That's not all..." I sat on top of the sink countertop and clutched my knees close to me, burying my face.

Remus, of course, was the first to understand. "Oh my God, he's got you all hot and bothered, doesn't he?" I couldn't see his face, but I could hear Jan's surprise and amusement.

I just groaned and Remus laughed with delight. "Aw, poor Virgil's a little too excited~"

This time, I spoke up, but my voice was still muffled. "Shut up."

Jan decided to get in on the act this time. "Looks like-"

I looked at them, my face still really red. "SHUT UP!"

Remus held his hands up in surrender as Jan just smirked. I hid my face again and sighed. The fact was, I hated how right they were. And that was so awful. He was making me think of all kinds of things. Things I would be horrified to say aloud.

The class bell rang and I begrudgingly made my way to class. If I had it my way, I would have stayed alone and waited for the day to end. But Jan forced me to get an education, the traitor. Roman watched me walk in and I tried my best to give him a smile to let him know everything was okay. He looked more relaxed and I saw Jan and Logan exchange a look with each other like they were aware of something we weren't.

The rest of the day passed with nothing happening. I kept staring at Roman during class, so I had to get notes from Jan. On the drive home, I just kept thinking about the party tomorrow. I wanted to make a decent impression, without looking I was trying too hard. Roman had been in my life for all of 3 days and he had completely thrown me for a loop.

I fell asleep fitfully that night, excited and dreading both the party and play rehearsal. I woke up at around midnight in a blind panic and packed some things in a bag. Then I fell back asleep, not finding much comfort in my dreams of Roman. My mind had been taken over by this boy.