Cupid Hates Me ✔

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

It appeared that a goofy smile and a red tinge were becoming permanent for me. And no, I wasn't even trying to be a clown. Although, they say that people in love do act like fools sometimes.

Love. Wow. That's a huge word. Well, not literally huge. I mean, it's just four letters. L-O-V-E. But, it meant so much. Was I ready for that?

Sure, at first I said that I was in love with Jake. But I'm just sixteen years old. Do I even know what love is? I mean, I look at my parents and wonder if I can see myself like that in ten years time. They're still smitten with each other. While other kids go 'eww' when they see their parents kiss, I go 'Aww, I hope I'll find love someday.'

But, when I said 'someday', I meant when I'm around twenty-five or something. Not now.

I don't think I'm afraid of commitment. Or maybe I am. The main thing is, it scared me how I could envision myself in ten years time, wearing a traditional white wedding dress, waking down the aisle towards my groom.

Jake.

I could imagine myself having a honeymoon in Hawaii. We both loved the beach.

I could even see a little girl with my curly black hair and with Jake's heart-melting smile and dark eyes.

Yes, I could imagine all that, and that was exactly what scared me. I was falling in too deep. Even though Jake said he had feelings for me, I felt like I was the one falling too hard. Sure, he liked me now, but what if he gets bored? Could I handle a break-up after seeing all that?

Man, I am never satisfied, am I? Why couldn't I be happy with what I have now?

Although, that was getting kind of hard to do when Jake was fifteen minutes late for our date. Seriously, did he want me to freak out even more? Didn't he know that I'm insecure enough as it is? We agreed to meet at the coffee shop, because we weren't sure what our mums would think if they saw Jake picking me up and then us going out. Now, I was starting to wonder if he stood me up. But…why?

At that moment, my cell phone started ringing. It was Jake. I knew it. I knew this was never going to –

"Sweetie, I am so sorry. You won't believe what happened -" he started rambling as soon as I picked up.

"What?" I asked, alarmed, my annoyance at him being late disappearing.

"My big sis came back with my nephew…and now I have to baby-sit him," I heard Jake say, sighing.

"Oh," I said. "Didn't you tell her that you had plans?" I asked, hoping not to sound too selfish.

"Yeah, I did. She thrust me the baby even faster…I swear she loves torturing me," mumbled Jake.

"Aww, alright. Maybe next time," I said.

"No, I won't be letting you go so easily, missy," he said. "You come over here. We'll hang out right now."

"With your…nephew and sister?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Yep. It's a date."

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The door was opened by a tall black-haired woman with a pretty, pointed face. She tilted her head at me, resting one hand on her slim hip.

"Yes? May I help you?" she asked. Her voice was a bit softer than I'd expected.

"Um…I'm here for -"

"Rebbie!" exclaimed Jake, literally materialising beside his sister. He grinned widely at me before embracing me in a tight hug.