Isaiah 14:12

•Romans 16:20•

Romans 16:20- "The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you."

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~Davina's POV~

Walking into the church, I keep my head down to avoid noticing people's judging stares and block out the whispering. There was just as much gossip about me leaving the church than Mr. Wheeler cheating on his wife with his daughter's math teacher. I also haven't seen Pastor Allen in months. The awkward conversation will come regarding him being Sin's father will surely come up.
     "I had a feeling she got pregnant," the girl in the pew behind me whispers to her friend-sister-girlfriend-whatever their relationship is. I roll my eyes, not finding that to be the craziest one yet. Someone saw me around with Sin when he came to visit once and started saying that I converted to satanism; that's the most bizarre one yet.
     Being in the church makes me sad as well as happy. I remind myself that I'm not here for them, but for myself. The whispering doesn't stop until everyone is filing out and saying their goodbyes. I stay in the very back to see Pastor Allen after everyone has left.
His eyes brighten when he sees me. It's a good surprise since I was expecting him to ignore me. As far as I know, he and Sin don't get along. I give him a warm smile, extending my arms. The door closes behind Livvi, leaving us alone. I step back, shifting in place.
"It's great to see you back," he says. "I apologize for all the...whispers about your situation." My eyes lower, feeling even more uncomfortable. Most of the whispers involve his son. "My son can be trouble, this is no exception. I'm sorry for what he's caused you."
My brows pull together, confused as to what he believes happened. My brother most likely spoke to him about the situation, seeing no problem in confessions to a pastor. My she falls in front of my face when I look back up, finding enough courage in me to speak.
"What do you think happened?" I ask.
"Your brother came here one night to talk," he says, confirming my theory that my brother told him. "I don't approve of the business my son is in whatsoever; it's disgusting and sinful. May god have mercy on his soul."
I can't help but scoff, rolling my eyes. His eyes widen at my reaction. "What he does for a living has nothing to do with his heart. He's a wonderful man that you haven't taken the time to get to know." I mentally slap myself for defending Sin. I know he's terrible and the things he does will most likely send him straight to Hell, but I'm willing to let him drag me down too it seems.
"I don't know what he's told you, but I've always tried my best with him. The devil speak-"
"Speaks louder, but Sin is not Lucifer, just as you are not God. Stop speaking of him as if he is, that's a sin," I say. He falls silent, looking down at me in shock. Slowly, I back out of the church, listening to my heels click against the tile. Outside, my brother is waiting with Livvi and Princess.
  "You ready to go?" Livvi asks with a happy smile. She's always bubbly when she wakes up early in the morning; it makes no sense. In the furthest, you can get from a morning person most of the time. Princess has earned so many pillows thrown to the face in the past for waking me up before my alarm.
    "I'm actually gonna go over to Princess for a little bit," I tell her. She looks up at my brother for confirmation fire nodding at me. Princess fishes her keys out of her bag and hands them to me. I hate driving, but I feel safer with me driving than her. She refuses to wear her glasses, so I'm constantly fearing for my life when she has to get up to a light to see its color.
     "Will you be home for dinner?" Xavier asks, taking Livvi's hand. Looking at them I can't help but wonder if I'll ever have that kind of relationship. Sin and I have never been the most affectionate in public, only that once at the park, but it's for good reason since I was underage. Sin never holds my hand just for the hell of it, you can tell it brings my brother comfort, whereas it brought Sin possession.
     Gosh, I want him out of my mind. If I was Princess, I would be getting wine drunk and gaining weight from candy.
     "Ready to have the best girls night?" I shake my head, opening the car door. Her version of fun and mine are very different, but it always ends up being a good time. "You're gonna have a blast whether you want to or not."
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     Laying on her bed, I wonder what made her decide to out green lights around her room when her theme is pink. The dorm is small and smells like a Bath and Bodies Works. She has a pink bohemian theme going on with a million pillows on her bed and lights anywhere she could place them.
     "This is your favorite movie and you're not even paying attention to it," she says, planning my stomach with her hand. I look up from my lap, seeing that the movie is already halfway over. Whenever we watch The Sandlot, it's like I'm watching it for the first time but my head is somewhere else right now. It's back in Washington.
     "There's a lot on my mind," I tell her. It would take a fool to not know I'm talking about Sin, so I don't go into much detail. We went over the whole situation the night I came back a week ago on the phone. That night my choice still felt right, but two days later I want thinking the complete opposite. I realize how much I grew accustomed to talking to Sin every day, even if it was just a simple "hello" text.
    "About Sinith?" She asks. I nod. It sounds strange to hear someone call him by his full name. People there call him Sin, Mr. Memosa, or Sir, and I call him Sin or Daddy...that sounds really bad. I'm talking about when I'm referring to him with Emmy.
    "Yeah, it's been weird lately. My emotions are all messed up," I tell her. She shrugs, straightening up just a tab more. Looking at the way her elbow is rested on the very edge of the bed, it gives me anxiety. I'm just waiting for it to fall and her head to go down.
"I'm happy you got out of that situation," she says. My brows pull together. She confuses me so much on where she stands with her opinion on Sin and I. One minute she's telling me that I should work things would before ending it and now she's happy that I left while I'm trying to tell her I feel like I made a mistake.
"Why?"
"Did you ever look into what you were getting yourself involved in? It's obvious he feels like he had some sort of ownership on you," she says. I put my head down; sadly, I feel that's true. If he didn't, I wouldn't be wanting to go back to him. "You only knew what he told you and the public doesn't know shit, so the mafia is like general knowledge shit to me. Just be happy he didn't get you knocked up."
My face turns red and hot. That would make the situation worse. "As stupid as it sounds, I miss him," I admit, now having the opportunity to open up.
"Don't be an idiot." I take offense to her comment. How am I not supposed to miss him when he becomes someone very important in my life? I can't shit my feelings off towards like a light switch; the wiring is messed up so it's taking a while for the light to turn off.
    "Do you think that he could actually love me?" I ask, needing a second opinion. I wish there was someone else I could go to, but Livvi would tell my brother and she doesn't like Sin either. My brother doesn't know anything about this and wouldn't listen to me talk about him. I have no other friends. My mom would have listened to every word I had to say. I mentally note down to go to cemetery tomorrow after my classes are done.
     "He cheated on you not once, but twice. The told you that your sex was lame. That's not love, and if it was that's fucked up. You wouldn't even be questioning it if it was," she tells me. Is she right? Is Sin nothing but lies and only once me as some sort of possession? My heart refuses to let me believe that.
    "I want to go to sleep," I say, scooting down and resting my head on the pillow. She reaches over an turns off the lamp on her nightshade. The green lights around the room still leave the room too bright to fall asleep, but I don't complain about it. I miss falling asleep wrapped in Sin's scent and protective arms. It was always so easy to relax and fall asleep.
     My phone goes off beside me. Reaching over, I grab it and look at the lit up screen. Is unsaved number with the same area code as Sin, making me hopeful that it's him until I actually open it. The actual contact shows up with Koles name under the number.
    Kole: I'm gonna be in town Tuesday. Want to hang out?
    My fingers tap the back my phone as I think it over. If Sin found out about this little meet up he would have Kole's head even though nothing will happen. However, maybe it will cause Sin to come here and talk to me about it. It sounds pathetic, but I don't want to be the one to go back on my own after wanting to leave so badly.
    Me: Sure :)

    AN: Kole, Kole, Kole...what am I gonna do to you 🤪 Yeah, I know Davina is irritating, that's the point; I don't want her character to be perfect. She's an irritating person who can't make her own decisions. I really hope you guys enjoyed!
   Question: Do you think Kole and Davina would make a good couple? Do you think it would be good for her to just go back?