Hey, Can I Rant?

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Messenger (PM)
10:12 AM

Lancelot Miguel:

u sure u gonna be okay?

Drianna Guinevere:

Migo...

you've been asking me that question almost every minute

sumasakit lang ulo ko hindi ako nabalian ng buto

i can manage

okay???

so stop worrying :)

im a big girl

Lancelot Miguel:

that's the longest chat you've chatted me since yesterday

i was worried that maybe i did something wrong to upset you...

Drianna Guinevere:

did you, Migo?

did you do something wrong to upset me?

Lancelot Miguel:

wala naman hahahahahaha

ano ka ba

anyways

mag ingat ka dyan :) love u

Drianna Guinevere:

yea, thanks :)

It feels so wrong to type I love you to him, I mean, he's been saying it for almost 2 years na pero ako? never tried saying it. Feel ko kasi na dapat may label pa muna magsasabi ng ganyan. It's just weird saying I love you to someone you're not committed with. But don't get me wrong, I love Migo. I really do.

And the 'hahahahaha' of Migo made me overthink things again! He never says hahahaha that long, unless...

Ugh, Gwy! Kaya ka najudge ng stranger kasi kahit maliit na bagay pinapalaki mo.

What if totoo naman yung sinabi ng stranger na yun? Am I really a complicated person? Do I overthink a lot?

But that's normal especially if teenager ka! Haaays.

But he just said his opinion. A voice creeped in my mind, probably my conscience speaking.

"Damn it." I uttered as a typed a message for him. I feel so guilty.

Twitter DM's
@vamour
10:23 AM

@drnnagwy:

sorry i bursted earlier

and the last hours, too

guess i was too emotional

u were right

i prolly make things complicated

that might be my talent lol

1 minute.

2 minutes.

3 minutes.

He's probably in school or offline. Ah basta! I apologized. That's good, right?

Hinilot ko ang sentido ko pagkatapos ng 10 minutes na naghihintay ng reply niya. Bahala na!

I drowned myself in encoding a sypnosis of my story. I decided the theme adulting. Yung unti unti ng mawawalan ng oras ang bida sa mga friends niya, sa family, then wala nading me time.

That's probably my greatest fear, adulting. I mean, death is scary too but that's inevitable. Adulting on the other hand? It's your choice.

It's either you pursue your dream and drown yourself with stress (but at least it'll be all worth it) or do YOLO and be problematic afterwards.

It's scary.

I was already satisfied with my sypnosis and prologue so I decided to stretch my nerves. I grab my go-to sling bag at lumabas sa apartment.

I went to the nearest cafè and ordered milktea and a donut habang nagsosound trip and nagscroscroll sa feed ko sa twitter.

Now Playing: Pink Skies by LANY

Di ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ko, kung bakit nagstastalk ako kay @vamour the omegle guy.

v i n c e.
@vamour                      follows you

8teen | engr. | Matthew 5:14

660 following                14.5k followers

Napataas ang kilay ko sa nakita ko. Never knew that this dude is that big time.

@vamour (pinned tweet)
It's a dark world. Be the light.
7:11 PM | July 11, 2018
10 replies • 12k retweets • 16.5k favs

@vamour
I want to talk to you so bad but you seem perfectly fine without me.
8:21 AM | September 3, 2019
23 replies • 13.1k retweets • 21k favs

@vamour
Overthinking is a choice. Stop it.
3:26 AM | September 3, 2019
4 replies • 10k retweets • 14.2k favs

@vamour
It's better to share to a stranger because they don't judge you since they don't know you.
3:02 AM | September 3, 2019
2 replies • 4k retweets • 6.9k favs

@vamour
omegle tayo? first timer here hehe
9:43 PM | September 2, 2019
103 replies • 1.2k retweets • 4k favs

I decided to reload his feed, hoping that maybe he'd tweet something. And to my shock, he did.

@vamour
get well soon, love.
11:11 AM | September 3, 2019
2 replies • 428 retweets • 681 favs

And I did the most absurd thing. I clicked follow back.