Hey, Can I Rant?

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this chapter is Gwy's POV

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January 30, 2020

"One more, please."

"Sosyalera mo naman yung may-ari ang nagseserve sayo." Inirapan ako ni LG but I only looked at her.

"C'mon! one more drink!"

"Eto na lechugas asan na ba kasi si Kaye?" LG handed me another drink, it stings pero masarap sa lalamunan.

I burped, "The hell, Gwy!" LG slapped me, I slapped her back. Kala niya ha?

"Shhhh... I'll chat Vince." LG cocked her head on the right but I only dismissed her.

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"Hey! I'm not yet done." Kinuha ni LG yung phone ko, she looked at me subtly.

"Sino si Vince? Yun ba yung lalaking sumulpot sa party natin?" LG asked.

"Shhhh! Di mo siya kilala! Di ko nga kilala yun, e." I covered LG's mouth, she just bit it kaya nabitawan ko.

"So siya nga? So what's with this Vince dude, huh?"

I sighed as LG offered me a glass, "What's this?"

"Water. Para mahimasmasan ka naman, then let's talk."

I drank the water LG gaved me. Gusto kong sumuka peo hindi ko ginawa. I looked at her and smiled.

"Alright. Let's talk."

"So, who's Vince in your life ba?"

"He's a stranger. He came in my life at my weakest point and at the most unexpected moment. He was just supposed to be a friend kasi I was obsessed over Lance, speaking of Lance, asan na kaya yung lalaking yun? Anyways, there was a time where their family went on a trip, he didn't chatted me for weeks! That was hell, like a my routine of chatting him everynight stopped and everynight seemed so empty..."

LG offered me a drink so I drank it. I was about to burp again but LG covered my mouth. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin but she only rolled her eyes and let go of me.

"So there's that, I talked to Franz about it but he only said that I was in love! How absurd that was? Right?" LG nod, "I didn't believed him because that was so unlikely... If ever that was true, then shit, sobrang bilis, nakakatakot. Ayoko ng ganun. But now that his away? I don't fucking care anymore, come hell or high water I'm taking all the risk, sana siya din..."

And that's the time where I started sobbing and hugging LG.

"Tangina, o-okay na sana ako, e. Malapit ko na sanang makalimutan. As bad at it might seem, pero ang sama ko talaga naman, I've been using Geo... Oh, God I'm so sorry... I f-feel so bad."

"He filled the void in my heart p-pero hindi, e. Hindi siya sapat... Gusto ko si Vince, si V-vince lang... Tangina hindi ko siya gusto, m-mahal ko siya... Please bring him back..."

I kept on murmuring come back until LG faced me and slapped me so hard in my face.

"What was that for?"

"A wake up call, because sis, let me tell you this. Being away doesn't mean everything's bound to go on an end, it means taking a break from everything. If he loves you, then he'll come back. If you'll go baby on him, then that's nice. Kapag iisnob mo siya and then he'll chase you the bitch that's nicer. As what I have heard, Vince is a good dude. He'll come along. Ikaw pa mismo nagsabi na masyado lang kayong mabilis tas he'll fix himself pa. Oo nga ready ka na pero siya ba, ready na?"

"See, kaya ayokong magkalove life, e. Sobrang complicated, ayaw ng isa pero gusto naman ng isa, paano na yan? One have to sacrifice kasi nga nasa relasyon kayo, well, if may relasyon kayo. Love goes on both ways, hindi lang yung gusto mo masusunod palagi. What about him? Di mo ba nakikita? He's fucking fixing himself--"

"So what's taking him so long?!" I shouted at her.

She slapped me.

Hard.

"Hindi naman madali yung pag-aayos niya sa sarili niya! Girl, walang fast forward yung life! While he's fixing, fix yourself din. I mean, look at yourself. You're a wreck, Gwy. Ayoko mang sabihin to pero tangina, you got to learn how to understand each other and konting trust naman sakanya oh."

"Love isn't just about love, there would be always be wounds, always."

I was nodding while sobbing at LG, shit ang sakit ng mukha ko!

"Okay, good girl, oh look, Kaye's here lang pala."

I turned around and then I saw Kaye, crying and looking at me.

"What's happening to you, Gwy?"

My mouth turned into an uncontrollable pout and when Kaye went near me and hugged me, that's when I broke down.

"I'm sorry... Si Geo shit ang s-sama ko... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

I kept whispering I'm sorry and she kept on replying with it's okay.

When we're done crying, Kaye smiled at me. Her make up's ruined, may mascara pa sa mata niya.

"Sorry, hindi yung waterproof ginamit ko. Na-nadumihan ka tuloy." Kaye said and looked at my shoulder, I just smiled at her.

We were just staring at each other, I heard LG saying goodbye so I waved my hand.

When LG's gone, Kaye heaved a sigh and looked at me.

"Hey I got to tell you something." Kaye said, I nod at her.

"G-go ahead..."

"If ever you and Geo would go awkward and all please... Don't let me choose sides between you and my cousin Gwy because shit, I live by the saying family first and both of you are my family..."

I cried harder.