lack of

useless, unused book

swallow me,
swallow me whole.
just take all of me in.
tell of all the bad things,
all the crimes you did.
whisper to me the things you'd like to do.
whether that be eating something sweet or setting a piece of paper on fire,
tell me about it
make me your diary,
carry me around where ever you go.
place me in a safe space and never forget about me.
tell me about your day,
and place odd doodles on my body.
take me all in and i'll swallow your words whole.
words that'll never be repeated with the same meaning,
i'll keep them safe for you.
keep me by your side and give me all your trust.
tell me about the silver dreams that'll never rust.
tell me about the people you want to crumble into dust.
have me swallow your worst nightmares,
give all your torture to me.
i can be your escape.
have me swallow your worst days,
give me the bad feelings.
i can be your escape.
tell me about it.
how you don't wanna go, don't wanna leave,
but this place makes you feel bad.
tell me how you don't want to write me anymore.
how tellings these stories is getting too tedious,
and you don't enjoy it anymore.
tell me about it.
show me how you don't want me by your side simply because i've become a nuisance.
swallow your regrets and spit them out on me.
use me as a punching bag,
have me swallow your hatred towards me.
whisper your threats and have me swallow my unfortunate feelings.
tell me about it.
about how i've become the escape that doesn't let you leave anymore.
how you don't even like my perfect little palm tree anymore.
tell me about it.
make me swallow my words and give my all to you.
have me swallow my joy and give it all to you.
make me drown in all my sorrow.
have me forget all the love we had by tomorrow,
i'm no longer your diary anymore.
throw me away and shield yourself from my pitiful cries.

November 4th, 2019