I'm So Fucked Up • Marlos Fanfiction • Descendants (ON HOLD)

29 • Suicide

Carlos' POV

Just because I said fine doesn't mean I'm fine.

Yes, I did come back to Auradon. The whole car journey no one said a word.

I still feel broken. Not because of Mal. Because in a fuck up!

I just want my life to be over with.

So here I sit in the bathroom, cutting myself.

Life is just crap!

"Carlos!" I heard someone knock.

"C-Coming!" I stuttered. I shoved the blade in my pocket and washed the blood.

It did sting but I deserve it anyway.

I opened the door and saw Evie. "Come with me! We're going to the mall!" Evie squealed.

I groaned. When we left my room, Uma, Harry, Gil, Jay, Mal, Jane, Lonnie, Doug and Cameron was there

"Hey Carlos!" Lonnie smiled. I didn't reply.

"So let's get going" Mal smiled. "Oh so your fucking in charge!" I spat.

"What's that supposed to mean" Mal snarked.

"That your a control freak. Yeah I know" I scoffed.

"Guys!" Uma said. "Let's just go" she continued.

We started to walk to the mall. .

We were at the food buffet. I was sitting down, looking at my phone.

"Aren't you gonna eat?" Gil asked. "I'm good" I whispered.

"Carlos, you need water. Your voice is raspy" Mal said.

"Don't the fuck you tell me what to do!" I snapped at her.

"Carlos stop it!" Cameron hissed.

"Can you stop being difficult!" Mal snarked. "I'm the one being difficult aren't it!" I yelled.

Go kill yourself

Cannibal!

Jeffery Dahmer

"N-No! Stop!" I screamed, holding my ears.

"Carlos are you...." Jay started.

"I-I'm okay" I put a fake smile on my face.

During the whole time I just looked at all the random texts and messages from people.

You have your whole life to be a jerk. Why don't you take a day off

Carlos you are a fuck up! I can't believe Mal dated you

Hi Jeffery Dahmer

I put my phone down.  "You sure your okay?" Harry asked.

"I'm fine."

Those two words.

It's funny how 2 words can hide everything.

Time Skip

"Guys stop it!" Evie yelled.

Me and Mal were arguing in me, Jay's and Cameron's room.

Cameron was with Jane.

"Well tell that to your highness" I said sarcastically.

"Carlos just shut up! I don't control you!" Mal spat.

"Oh really! You are now fucking forcing me to go see a therapist! No way! Never!" I yelled.

"Your not fine Carlos. Be honest" Mal said, calming down. 

"I'm f-fine" I stuttered.

"Carlos...." Mal trailed off, holding my wrists.

I winced in pain, pulling my hands back.

"Wait..." Jay said and pulled up my sleeves before I could stop him.

They all gasped. "I thought you stopped. You said you were given!" Evie cried.

"I am fine!" I yelled.

Fuck up

Commit suicide Dahmer!

"Your crazy Carlos!" Mal yelled. "I'm not!" I bellows. "You need a therapist Carlos! Your mental. Even as mental as Dahmer!" Mal yelled and gasped after what she said.

That was it! The last straw

"Mal!" Evie hissed. Tears welloped in my eyes. "Go away" I cried, shoving everyone out. I locked the door.

"Carlos!" I heard Mal and Jay yell.

"Fuck off!" I snapped.

I fell to the floor crying. Everyone wants me to die! Then fine! Nobody ever. Needed me. I was useless.

Invisible

I walked to my cabinet and opened it with a key, getting my pills.

I started to take multiple at a time. I started to feel week and dizzy.

I fell to the ground, my cuts bleeding. I couldn't see as everything went pitch black............