my scarred mate (book three) (completed)

2. destiny

I walked on the soft sand i always wanted to go to the beach and relax, watch the sun set...a normal life

Four months!

Its been four months since I left something I promised I wouldn't do. Now I know how nicole felt, smother in your own home! Its like your trapped and you have to get out

Soon the sun set and I was sitting on a shaded rock! Crying the pain away because no matter how much I hide it, no matter how much I try to forget it...it always finds its way back to me

I was a fucking child! How could they let that shit happen to me. Why wasnt I strong enough! Why couldn't I fight back! Why was I the one that had to suffer

Why was I the one that have to live with the Painful memories of my past.

Walking back to my car I let out a bitter laugh

I always end up crying like a little bitch!

"Snap out of that sit destiny! You are not a weak bitch" I told myself

'I miss our mate'

'I do too'

'When will we see him against'

'Soon'
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"Destiny its so great to see you again"

"You saw me two days ago"

" it feels like years"

"Lets get this session over with"

"Thats not the mood I was looking for!"

"And I didnt think I'll be here again"

"You came to me begging for help! Lets lose the attitude"

"First I wasn't begging! I was emotional and I wasnt in the right state of mind"

"You know know why you arent in the right state of mind"

"Dont say it"

"You stopped taking your meds"

"I never needed those pills"

"Destiny? Look at you...your a mess"

"Thats because I was up all last night"

"Crying?"

"Drinking"

"Destiny you are 24"

"25...my birthday was last week"

"Well 25...you shouldn't be heavy drinking"

"I'm grown I can do what I want"

"Take a moment and think! Your far away from home! Your having panic attacks! Your drinking more! Your doing hard core drugs! God this is not you"

"Dont be ridiculous"

"Whats ridiculous is you showing up here asking for me to fix you...and you not taking this seriously"

"I am"

"Really did you think to do what I asked?"

"Call cole...hell no"

"Any family member"

"Fuck no! Thats the last time im going to say it"

"OK then we are done here! I'll send your extra money back to you! But you are no longer welcome here destiny"

"You cant do this to me"

"when you want to actually get better call me! Now please show yourself out"

"Jessica please"

"No! I have people who actually wants to get help...and you destiny is wasting my time and others....theres three people out there waiting on me! And I will not waste my time"

"fine! I dont fucking need you"

"Yes you do! And in the end you will be back here"

I stomped out. Heading to the bar!

I need a fucking drink

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Six drinks later I was stumbling into my hotel! I dont drink in drive but I needed to get my black ass home somehow.

This is the part of me I dont like! But its like i cant control myself.

Who the fuck do jessica think she is! Shes stupider than the last time I saw her

She thinks she knows everything with her stupid ass

I stumped on the couch and sat down

The stupid bitch needs to know how fucking retarded she sounded today

Getting back on that medication!

Lmao!

Lmao?

Who the fucks still says that destiny! Sober up bitch

What was I doing again?

Oh yea calling that bitch ass destiny!

Wait I'm destiny!

I meant jessica

Yea Jessica

Strolling though my contacts I quickly put the phone to my ear

She got me f-

"Destiny?"

That voice that I longed to hear was on the other end of the line! This was definitely not jessica

"Destiny? Are you there?"

"Hi cole!"

"I wasnt expecting this"

He sounded happy and knowing I the source of that makes me happy

"I-i- I'm Sorry"

"Are you drunk?"

"A little"

"When are you coming home des? Youve been gone long enough! I know you needed space but this is too long! Your sisters need you! I-i- I need you"

"You need me?"

"Yes"

"You don't hate me for leaving?"

"No im pissed! But this was something you truly needed to do!"

"Thank I'm coming"

"What?"

"You said you need me right?"

"Yes!"

"Than im coming! Because I need you too"

"I'll be waiting"
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The call sobored me all the way up! The headache I had was small but still growing

Cole doesnt hate me

The weight was lifted off my shoulders!

That was my last thought before I drifted off to sleep